Moving....
So I just found out last night that I have to move outta my apartment by this Saturday....that's only giving me 3 days to pack up and move out. This is almost a nightmare for me. I wanna cry.....
I'm moving 5 hours away from this place that I call home. I'm moving to San Antonio. I have a pretty huge apartment and so much stuff and I have to pack it all up by myself.....talk about hard work! It's just really gonna suck because my back and my arm are still causing me a lot of pain from my car wreck in December....so moving this furniture and boxes and stuff.....it'll prolly kill me!
This is just horrible....all that happiness that I was feeling....yup...it's all gone....I'm drowning in stress and sadness. I know that sounds really emo too! It's just that my whole world....my life....is being put on pause.....and all around me....good things are still happening to other people. There are so many people that have reasons to be happy or at least satisfied with their lives.....but since happiness failed me....in my mind....it should be failing everyone else...That sounds so selfish! I know I prolly didn't word that correctly so that's gonna make me look bad.
I'm so unhappy with myself right now...and I have absolutely no motivation to pack my things up either. I'd rather just sit and cry. I'm being a baby....I know....and eventually I'm gonna have to suck it up and just work through it....but it's situation is still so fresh....and it's just now sinking in....Last night I was just pumped up and ready to get out....now that I've had time to think about it....I don't wanna go.........
Anyway....it's time to convince myself to starting packing......
I'm moving 5 hours away from this place that I call home. I'm moving to San Antonio. I have a pretty huge apartment and so much stuff and I have to pack it all up by myself.....talk about hard work! It's just really gonna suck because my back and my arm are still causing me a lot of pain from my car wreck in December....so moving this furniture and boxes and stuff.....it'll prolly kill me!
This is just horrible....all that happiness that I was feeling....yup...it's all gone....I'm drowning in stress and sadness. I know that sounds really emo too! It's just that my whole world....my life....is being put on pause.....and all around me....good things are still happening to other people. There are so many people that have reasons to be happy or at least satisfied with their lives.....but since happiness failed me....in my mind....it should be failing everyone else...That sounds so selfish! I know I prolly didn't word that correctly so that's gonna make me look bad.
I'm so unhappy with myself right now...and I have absolutely no motivation to pack my things up either. I'd rather just sit and cry. I'm being a baby....I know....and eventually I'm gonna have to suck it up and just work through it....but it's situation is still so fresh....and it's just now sinking in....Last night I was just pumped up and ready to get out....now that I've had time to think about it....I don't wanna go.........
Anyway....it's time to convince myself to starting packing......