THERE IS NO FUCKING GOD
if you read my previous entry- about me being the other woman....please read on:
I just did a little internet stalking via myspace- and I found his fucking girlfriend- AGH! and she has similar hair, skintone, etc. oh, and the SAME NAME AS ME. this is proof that there is no god. ew how cruel. Jessica- JESSICA. cursed name (picture me screaming that all shakespearian "curse-ed!" )
she is shorter- and a bit thinner.....fucking mini me.
i read his little comments he left her- and the ones she left him. they seemed so sacharine- i wanted to die-----and all i could do was read on- it was self imposed torture of the highest calibur. straight through my heart.....see- I really don't have that much invested in this relationship/boinkfest....but i could.....why does he have a girlfriend.....and why does she seem so perfect- why would he stray?
anyone who knows me well, knows i was blessed/cursed with a one track mind.......so i had to figure out when he saw her last.....and i did---JUST the weekend before he met me.....she comes up to brooklyn all the time to visit. Its funny- cos i am assuming she knows all his friends here- but he paraded me around with him the other night and introduced me to his friends- we even made out in public, and i generally hate HATE hate PDA! and again i say- i still kinda like him....EWWWWW I HATE HAVING CRUSHES---they are always bad- and mine last for years....I wasted the better part of my late teens and early 20's pining over 2 retarded dip-shits and do not want to do it again. ALAS!
I just did a little internet stalking via myspace- and I found his fucking girlfriend- AGH! and she has similar hair, skintone, etc. oh, and the SAME NAME AS ME. this is proof that there is no god. ew how cruel. Jessica- JESSICA. cursed name (picture me screaming that all shakespearian "curse-ed!" )
she is shorter- and a bit thinner.....fucking mini me.
i read his little comments he left her- and the ones she left him. they seemed so sacharine- i wanted to die-----and all i could do was read on- it was self imposed torture of the highest calibur. straight through my heart.....see- I really don't have that much invested in this relationship/boinkfest....but i could.....why does he have a girlfriend.....and why does she seem so perfect- why would he stray?
anyone who knows me well, knows i was blessed/cursed with a one track mind.......so i had to figure out when he saw her last.....and i did---JUST the weekend before he met me.....she comes up to brooklyn all the time to visit. Its funny- cos i am assuming she knows all his friends here- but he paraded me around with him the other night and introduced me to his friends- we even made out in public, and i generally hate HATE hate PDA! and again i say- i still kinda like him....EWWWWW I HATE HAVING CRUSHES---they are always bad- and mine last for years....I wasted the better part of my late teens and early 20's pining over 2 retarded dip-shits and do not want to do it again. ALAS!