Lost in my own feelings
Well it has been about 4 months sence me and the love of my life have not been togather and i am lost in my feelings about her i hate her in a way for breaking my heart and i love her the same for showing me that i can love and can be loved..i dont know if me loveing her is the best thing i still am deppely in love with her but the feeling aint the same for her and i wish thay were...i love her so much and i dont think she understands why i dont even know why but i do and at this point i will always i dont want to ever loss her and i dont ever want her to be out of my life but i think that may just happen she has everything up here where she is and it kinda sucks but hey who knows shit changes...well my best friend is here well back from were she was and i was so happy she makes me feel like my ex in so many ways i miss her when she leaves and i think she misses me..well my uncle said my gram called today and i was not here but anyways he said that thay was getting ready for tghe next hurracain and well she would call when she had the chance to but i wanted to talk to her so bad i am gonna try and call her tomorrow when i get done busting my ass around the house well i need to go shower klike always so got to go....