What's wrong with me??
I don't know what's wrong with me. I have been in this depression stage for quite a while now. It is like i really need to see my family and the closest thing to that is Peter. So i need him more and so i am extra annoying by complaining about not being able to talk to him enough even though things haven't changed and not seeing him enough even though i might have seen him for a longer time. I feel so immature. I hope that after i see my family and go home i will surpass a stage in my life and be a little more realistic. I mean almost all of Peter and i's relationship has been long distance and now all of a sudden i have been such an annoying bitch about it. Nothing has changed it isn't like i was holding stuff in and it exploded. I just don't understand. He is annoyed with me now and tired of dealing with my bullshit. And i totally understand why. I just don't want to lose him. It is like i know what i do wrong but right now whenever i tell myself to change it it just won't change. Why? Why do i have to put myself through this? Ohh well hopefully i can become more of a human being instead of just an annoying piece of crap.