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i got my tax money! ~SQUEEEEEE~ just in time for the weekend. i'm supposed to go to LI again this weekend with a trip to the Container Store along the way. i say "supposed to" because he's being an ASS. keeps changing his mind about whether he wants me to come down or to take the weekend for himself (every weekend for the past four months, he's either been seeing me or his son, sometimes both). i told him it's ok to want downtime. i had also told him to wait until friday to tell me for sure because he was still feeling iffy, but last night we were making plans about wheres and whens. if he changes his mind again tonight, he's gonna hear about it. i hate wishy-washy shit and last-minute plans. i do have other things i could do, both with the time and the money i'd pay for the train tickets, but i'd like to see him since we usually only have every other weekend.
honestly, i'm so aggravated, i'm not sure i want to go. he doesn't seem to understand that i don't have much emotional middle ground and to go through highs and lows like this is like a mindfuck. i can't shut it off. if i could, i would, because it's not fun. it's great that he wants to see me, but if it's in spite of himself, then he needs to suck it up and skip this weekend, sit home in his boxers and watch TV. i'll go to the mall and see Brokeback alone, then find things to use my christmas-returns store credits on, and i'll be just fine, thanks.
*snarl*
good news is, i finally got back my last batch of bloodwork and everything's normal. it also means i can change that one new 'script that was costing me $30. ::wipes brow::
honestly, i'm so aggravated, i'm not sure i want to go. he doesn't seem to understand that i don't have much emotional middle ground and to go through highs and lows like this is like a mindfuck. i can't shut it off. if i could, i would, because it's not fun. it's great that he wants to see me, but if it's in spite of himself, then he needs to suck it up and skip this weekend, sit home in his boxers and watch TV. i'll go to the mall and see Brokeback alone, then find things to use my christmas-returns store credits on, and i'll be just fine, thanks.
*snarl*
good news is, i finally got back my last batch of bloodwork and everything's normal. it also means i can change that one new 'script that was costing me $30. ::wipes brow::