a few things i need to journal about
chacras (shacras?
i went to an in-service today about the "mind body commection" and the speaker lead us through a meditation involving the different chacras in the body and how we relate to others. it involved this image of uprooting cords within us that belong to others. these cords are ways people drain our energy. i got to the willingness chacra and using the imagery attempted to uproot the cords planted there, but to my surprise no natter how hard i tugged, one of them would not loosen or come free. i became very frustrated wiht this but left it be and continued on with the meditation. when i reached my spiritual chacra the cord came loose and most of it freed, but pieces were left behind. i mentioned my observation to the group at the end, and everyone laughed. i think they thought i was joking or making fun of it. the speaker said that it was ok, just to be aware of that commection. someone in the training that knows me quite well suggested that it might be my parents...
it makes sense, i just dont know if i want to go there today and think about it anymore.
i have a nasty sinus infection thtqa caused me to leave work early yesturday to go to the dr. today i worked the whole day and it was surely one of those days i should ahve spent in bed. i barely got any work accomplished at all.
the nurse incharge of programming for my unit made a bonehead decision to allow pt's an extra smoke break everytime we do a group outside. we do lots of groups outside in the spring. its a nice change of scenery. however i do not appreciate this man dictating what happens in my groups or railroading me into this stupid new rule. he did not discuss it with the team, nor did he ask the GROUP THERAPY department how we felt about it. i told him i was strongly against it because it would be distracting, and none of us smoke. his respop0nse was well the MHS's that dont smoke still have to take pts out to smoke. yea well thats not part of my fucking job description. i told him i wouldnt follow the rule and he threatened to write me up to my supervisor. he thinks that the extra smoke breaks will encourage the pt's to go to groups. i think it is degrading to think that we must entice them with one of their addictions like the proverbial carrot on a stick. i am enfuriated by his lack of respect for my concerns or opinions. pretty much saying he was going to do waht he was going to do regardless of what i, or the other members of the team thinks about it.
this is the same nurse who decided to use music during a group and called it music therapy and then couldnt really understand why i was so upset with him. he tried to blow it off by saying well it IS music and it IS therapy so why shouldnt i call it that. hello u asshole ur not a fucking music therapist. then when he asked me screen the songs , i assessed that 1 of the 3 songs he was using was a really touchy subject and that i was not comfortable with him using it. he response was thanks for ur opinion but im not going to stop using it. so why fucking ASK me about it then??????
work is getting stressful. i feel like my unit is in termoil. i feel underappreciated and invalidated. my boss does her best to make up for it, but she is really not as strong of an advocate as i need right now. i need to find a new profession. i need a nice desk job somewhere with little to no human contact. human services is driving me nuts. to finish off my day we had a department meeting with the staff edicator to sign off on staff competancies attesting to their ability to run groups in the hospital. i felt like the staff educator was turning it into her own personal petty pissing contest. she said some very negative things about some staff that i love working with and that i think run good groups. every time i added my opinion she told me i was wrong. she called me "jessy" repeatedly even after i corrected her.
its so frustrating.
i went to an in-service today about the "mind body commection" and the speaker lead us through a meditation involving the different chacras in the body and how we relate to others. it involved this image of uprooting cords within us that belong to others. these cords are ways people drain our energy. i got to the willingness chacra and using the imagery attempted to uproot the cords planted there, but to my surprise no natter how hard i tugged, one of them would not loosen or come free. i became very frustrated wiht this but left it be and continued on with the meditation. when i reached my spiritual chacra the cord came loose and most of it freed, but pieces were left behind. i mentioned my observation to the group at the end, and everyone laughed. i think they thought i was joking or making fun of it. the speaker said that it was ok, just to be aware of that commection. someone in the training that knows me quite well suggested that it might be my parents...
it makes sense, i just dont know if i want to go there today and think about it anymore.
i have a nasty sinus infection thtqa caused me to leave work early yesturday to go to the dr. today i worked the whole day and it was surely one of those days i should ahve spent in bed. i barely got any work accomplished at all.
the nurse incharge of programming for my unit made a bonehead decision to allow pt's an extra smoke break everytime we do a group outside. we do lots of groups outside in the spring. its a nice change of scenery. however i do not appreciate this man dictating what happens in my groups or railroading me into this stupid new rule. he did not discuss it with the team, nor did he ask the GROUP THERAPY department how we felt about it. i told him i was strongly against it because it would be distracting, and none of us smoke. his respop0nse was well the MHS's that dont smoke still have to take pts out to smoke. yea well thats not part of my fucking job description. i told him i wouldnt follow the rule and he threatened to write me up to my supervisor. he thinks that the extra smoke breaks will encourage the pt's to go to groups. i think it is degrading to think that we must entice them with one of their addictions like the proverbial carrot on a stick. i am enfuriated by his lack of respect for my concerns or opinions. pretty much saying he was going to do waht he was going to do regardless of what i, or the other members of the team thinks about it.
this is the same nurse who decided to use music during a group and called it music therapy and then couldnt really understand why i was so upset with him. he tried to blow it off by saying well it IS music and it IS therapy so why shouldnt i call it that. hello u asshole ur not a fucking music therapist. then when he asked me screen the songs , i assessed that 1 of the 3 songs he was using was a really touchy subject and that i was not comfortable with him using it. he response was thanks for ur opinion but im not going to stop using it. so why fucking ASK me about it then??????
work is getting stressful. i feel like my unit is in termoil. i feel underappreciated and invalidated. my boss does her best to make up for it, but she is really not as strong of an advocate as i need right now. i need to find a new profession. i need a nice desk job somewhere with little to no human contact. human services is driving me nuts. to finish off my day we had a department meeting with the staff edicator to sign off on staff competancies attesting to their ability to run groups in the hospital. i felt like the staff educator was turning it into her own personal petty pissing contest. she said some very negative things about some staff that i love working with and that i think run good groups. every time i added my opinion she told me i was wrong. she called me "jessy" repeatedly even after i corrected her.
its so frustrating.