Okay, New day...
Yeah, I do do a lot of... just basically dumping on here lately. But I feel like I need it. I have the journal that Ricky got me... and it's mine... and I write in there... but for some reason... this is more convenient lately.
Anyways... I was just doing some thinking. About the past that is. I was remembering the first time I talked to Ricky... and then how my sophomore and junior year went after that... And now this... My senior year. It seems wild on the social scale... Well, I don't have a social life at all. But... I did have people I got to see once in a while before theirs and my actions made that impossible... And I'm just considering all the things I used to say I'd never do, haha Until i did them. I don't regret any of it. I just find it odd how... Weak people's resolutions are under slight pressure, and intense wanting. It's... interesting to say the least. I don't want any comments on this... And honestly, least of all, I don't want Erin's comments on this... Because she always has a reason for people's behavior or something that sounds snooty... and as much as I care about her, I don't want those to ruin these thoughts.
To continue the thoughts part... It's almost weird when I can think about the feelings I've had for Ricky... and I don't know how they've never changed. Cuz... From the beginning, our relationship showed the signs of... an infatuation that wouldn't last but 3 weeks at the most... And now it has. And it's amazing... Almost 2 years... That's insane. But... Satisfyingly so. Anyways, there's my bit of randomness for today. It's annoying to obsess over your love(er) in person... so I do it here I guess lol
Anyways... I was just doing some thinking. About the past that is. I was remembering the first time I talked to Ricky... and then how my sophomore and junior year went after that... And now this... My senior year. It seems wild on the social scale... Well, I don't have a social life at all. But... I did have people I got to see once in a while before theirs and my actions made that impossible... And I'm just considering all the things I used to say I'd never do, haha Until i did them. I don't regret any of it. I just find it odd how... Weak people's resolutions are under slight pressure, and intense wanting. It's... interesting to say the least. I don't want any comments on this... And honestly, least of all, I don't want Erin's comments on this... Because she always has a reason for people's behavior or something that sounds snooty... and as much as I care about her, I don't want those to ruin these thoughts.
To continue the thoughts part... It's almost weird when I can think about the feelings I've had for Ricky... and I don't know how they've never changed. Cuz... From the beginning, our relationship showed the signs of... an infatuation that wouldn't last but 3 weeks at the most... And now it has. And it's amazing... Almost 2 years... That's insane. But... Satisfyingly so. Anyways, there's my bit of randomness for today. It's annoying to obsess over your love(er) in person... so I do it here I guess lol