working again
So on a very random note, I think my dad knows about me and Erin, my love. He's been ok with her coming over almost every night since my mom left. In any case, I wish we were living together because I miss her so much and it's not fair for her to have to drive up here to see me all the time. And yeah... Also, I'm tired of work. I wish that I could be just your plain simple house wife, because you know what, that would be fine with me. To be able to stay home, clean the house, take care of the kids and the kids (animals), making meals for the family. I'd like that, but I'm not that lucky. I'm going to have to be the money-maker in this relationship. And I hate to say it, but it's killing me. I sit there and I wonder why I don't have money for this or that, but it's because I'm spending it on me and Erin. I've also really been questioning why she loves me and would want to be with me lately. Especially since we had a huge argument (Again), at orchestra rehearsal this past week. I just don't really know what it feels like to be loved this much and to love someone this much. It really scares me because I'm afraid one day that she won't love me anymore and then I'll be all alone...which is actually what I'm used to. Anyway, I'm done babbling right now. Just trying to find things to do while I'm sitting here, bored at work. It's been slow today, not that I'm complaining. But I sometimes feel like I want to shoot myself in the foot for amusement when it's this slow. NOW I'm done babbling. : - )