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Recently i've had the sudden urge to jornal again.For months everything has been an unrecorded mess.i couldn't tell you off the top of my head what i did exactly a week ago,i second guess myself so i'd reallly have to think about it.Sunday was my cousin's wedding,it was alright,i was a bridesmate but it was apperent i was the most miserable there, i had to get these horrid fake nails that makes it extremely hard to type in so bare with me! i also had to dye my hair black to remve the red in my hair cause god forbid the bride cries cause her bridesmates don't look exactly a like. seriously she was getting on my nerves cause everything had to be her way.my mom wore my prom dress to the wedding and broke my tall clear platform shoes that i was suppose to wear so a u can imagine,it was none stop bitching on my behalf.every chance i got i called my mom a whore.:-D.I got to change out of that rediculous bridesmates dress to a black dress and fishnets-no need for shoes to dance :-p. it was a good after party, besides the creepy spanish men demanding to dance >_< all i wanted was one drink! ugh.i couldn't even get that so i drank so much water and coke that by the end of the night i felt like a 6 month pregnat woman and the next day i felt the same even if i hadn;t eaten anything.after summer school (yeah shut up i had a lot of absences this year) i hung out with Kenny at his house,he went to work and then we went out to go eat.it was a lot of fun,him and i have been getting into stupid aruments lately but we try for them not to get to out of hand.we work something out and then we're okay with each other again.well i went home after eating and when i got home the door was locked.my step dad was the only one home and of course he wouldn't answer the door cause thats the type of asshole he is,so whil sitting on my porch i got a call from my dad from florida.we talked a little cause my phone battery was dying and he just wanted to ask for my adress,he wouldn;t tell me why he wanted it but i already know him and my mom plan on buying me a car soon for my graduation/birthday.so my battery dies when i call my mom after to tell her im on my way to my cousin's cause my step dad refused to open the door for me after many attempts to get inside.as i was walking up ferry st i had the scare of my life,a man began following me with his car,as he kept offering to give me a ride or know my name i either ignored him or just declined nicly cause he looked like 50 or someting but he was pretty big,but as e kept following me i panicked and began walking fast into side streets to lose him; he found me though around the skating rink and got of the car where he cornered me and began wanting to touch me.i reacted by kicking him and running away.I made it to my cousin's shooken up and scared but i didnt tell anyone but my cousin jenn because i didn't want it to get bad-the way my mom is and my family they find ways to turn these kind of things into my fault so i didn't bother.I told kenny later that night and h e was so worried and pissed,he was just about ready to go to malden and possibly murder the first guy who remotely fit the guys discribtion.he walked to my house where we spoke a lttle out my bathroom window because i have a lot of realatives stayinh over my house so i had to be quiet.i told him i was fine and told him to go home.i'm not exactly sure what he did after my house but i know we both didn't sleep much.i didn't sleep until i saw the sun coming up and i felt safe at home.God,i wish the drama ended there.it never does,i hate mylife. this morning,i called kenny to see what he had done last and he just said he walked around pretty much and went back home.my mother and relatives left this morning to Niagra falls in New York cause of my cousin's honeymoon,and i had to stay home because of work (thats another issue,i'm lucky i didn't get fired cause i was suppose to work yesturday and not today >_<) and school,i have to be in early tomorrow,i dont have it today cause its the 4th of july.anyways,my step dad was the only one home and kenny and i wanted to hang out in my room but he said he'd only come when my step dad left.i agreed and took a nap waiting for my step dad to go to sleep.when i woke up around 9:40 or so i looked out my window and my step dads car was gone.so i called kenny sure that he was gone.Alyssa called me and i spoke to her cause i have to get her something cause i love her that much-and well kenny was at my house,i went to answer the door and when i did kenny informed me that he had seen a green blazer parking in the driveway (my step dads car),i ran inside and sure enough he was stepping out of his car, i freaked out and when my step dad saw kenny he began yeling at him and me and i yelled back as he told kenny to leave and he wante me to leave too.he thratened to all the cops and i didnt care cause i knew nothing would happen cause we didn;t do anything wrong,kenny wasn;'t even in the house to begin with.sue enough he calls the cops.3 cruisers come and kenny is so pissed at this point he's laughing and swearing.cops question kenny,me and my dad- like i thought they didn;t do anything to kenny and i walked away with kenny as my step dad closed the house door and the cops drove away.kenny was so pissed he started punching things and screaming on the top of his lungs and i just walked behind him scared and quiet.we got here at his dad's and my mom called me asking what happened.i told her the truth and she just told me to stay over his mom's to be safe,she knew that my step dad refuses to be home alone with me and was regreting not telling me earlier to go stay at kenny's mom.as of now,nothing else has happened but i'll be sure to update the sort of mayham i'll run into tonight if any,after all it' the 4th,cops and fireworks,hurray.