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[mutablefires]

:chills form down my spine, tears begin to well:: I've come to a point where I believe I either think too much or not enough, both are prevalent to my life at the moment. Have you ever been afraid of never finding true love, or messing up once you've found it. Sometimes I wish I had more wisdom and I knew what my decisions would do to me and

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[sillylili25]

I'm not too sure if this makes you feel any better, it's not meant to do that, I want you to know you're not alone. Right now I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes knowing that what you write is true. And it kills me to know that I feel the same way. It hurts almost as bad as knowing that someone I care for so much feels this way too. We are put in these situations every day of our lives, we try not to conform but then realize the only way to get noticed, when really deep down its what we want, is to in fact conform. And I hate it, I hate every bit of it. I hate crying myself to sleep all too often because I wasn't noticed when I wore a little make up, and when I realized I have to wear a sweater to cover up my insecurities. And it kills me to know that one of my dearest friends at the momnet is put upon by the unknowing public. It kills me to know that this world we're living in, hurts us so and yet we carrying on with smiles on our faces that hide the pain. I too wish I could escape from this dreadful place, this place where it takes wearing a "low cut" shirt to be commented on. And I'm sorry for being one of those to comment. I'm sorry you have to feel this way and I'm sorry there's nothing I could do about it. I wish there was something I could do. The day I get the chance I'm leaving this, if only for a day or two, just to go, just to escape. You hsould know that if there ever is anythign I could do, I'm just a call away, day or night, night or day, I'll be there for you. Don't feel you have nobody to talk to, becasue you do.

-Lili