doing better
i went to graduation pratice today and talked to bethany during most of it, acutally texted messages did it. But i got some from Emily explaining the situation, and kinda explained the whole thing. It she guy she likes is Alex, which i sortof figured out, but he lives in Maryland so she cant be with him, and also just doesnt want a boyfriend now. she also said that shes got alot to think about right now, but she still does like me. Im not for sure why, but jsut her telling me those few things made things a whole lot better. Cept for the fact of me still liking her alot and like hanging out with her alot and the fact that i was suppose to go and hang out with her today and she was suppose to go to my graduation tomorrow, just kinda bums me out, but maybe she'll get over what ever is bothering her, and we'll go back out. Untill i get over this whole thing, im gonna be living a wierd life basically. No morning wake up calls from her, calls after she gets out, calls during work and random text messages on how much she likes me or that she thinks im hot and telling me so i woudltn forget. When i talk to her next im gonna, see if she still just wants to hang out or soemthing or still talk on the phone, i know it'll be awkward but still i'm gonna miss hearing her voice and just talking to her. But yeah i jsut thought ill update anyone, if any who reads this, on whats going on now. But really after bethany going otu with that other guy, i thought things would be wierd but thats who i've mainly been talking to, and realizing that she is one of my best friends now. Even after everything we went threw, still manage to be friends and become best friends.