A little mental deviation now and then is good for the soul...
I've had lots of thoughts in the back of my mind lately, so I figured it was time to let them out. The first few weeks of the term were quite rough for me. I was very depressed, spent days at a time holed up in my room because I didn't want to go anywhere, see anyone or do anything, and I've already missed quite a few classes. Things are starting to turn around now. I'm going to force myself to stay on track, stay healthy, look out for myself, and all that good stuff. It's like my dad said, I need to be my own best friend. I've known this all along, but sometimes I forget to actually do it. It's not going to help me feel any less alone or disconnected, but there's not much I can do about that. I just have to accept the way things are going to be. It's always going to feel like something's missing, and it's going to take a while to heal. In the mean time, I have to try not to beat myself up and worry about being perfect and "cool" and good enough etc etc...I just have to be patient with myself.