#328: Surf
i just wrote Joel an email. wow. And I think what I said, I want to blog it too! (hope Joel doesn't mind)
hey joel!
one big hug for you
i know alot of things have been thrown at you(joel) right now. and you're probably you're in a position where you can't do anything! kinda feel like Job? (okay, except nothing material has been taken from you) i think the hardest part of trials and tribulations is not so much not knowing where it'll end up (cos we have Faith that God will work for good) or how it'll be (difficult, but you know you can handle it because God is a gentleman and He won't pile more on your plate than you can handle) BUT the emotions that come along with it. Its whatever human about us that makes us upset, sad. I think even for me, like, the situation that I'm in right now. I feel Overwhelmed. You know that feeling. This great weight you feel on your shoulder that you just want to shrug off but can't. Its the weight of the emotions I'm feeling (I'm not sure if you feel the same way). Its confusion/sadness/anxiety/distress/and more all rolled into one BIG boulder and man, it weighs a TON.
I think i try to take it sloww. I've been praying. And really, all that comes to my mind is surfing on God's strength. Why surfing? Cos that's going with each wave and crest of the tide. It's feeling the sun beat down on you, the sea-spray and the wind against your hair. It's going with the flow but knowing that the tide will carry you closer to the shore. Yep, the ride might be rocky, surfing is rocky, but you know you'll eventually get back to shore! Especially if your wave is God! :D
So for now, I'm just going to completely place everything at God's feet. and know He can handle everything I can't, EVEN my emotions. :) I think for all those anxious thoughts, I pray and change them to cheerful thoughts that God is faithful, and He loves me! :D
hang in there my dear.
God bless,
Shirin <3