#320: chop-stamp-guaranteed
so that's it. 1 year of my life in photos put onto a CD. -.-
i want to bring everything from singapore. i want to go everywhere, breathe in the scents, memorise them and store them for a moment of homesickness, feel everything, see everything, do everything. but i'm so short on time. i always am! :( and yeah, i know that i've been overseas a dozen times and all. but somehow this is different, not only because its a one-year away thing but... maybe... i realise how alone i'll feel in london. (okok, i know addy is there too and so are my granduncle/auntie and the mega-fun singsoc people).
but for now, mum and dad, adeline and sheralyn have been away since the 1st of sept (all of them together) and rushing around doing things, waiting for buses, rain or no rain, makes me really treasure how lucky i am to be able to just call any of my parents up to ask them to pick me up. at least i'm assured a dry ride home. :(
prata with my grandparents yesterday was also a tinge of nostalgia and sadness that hit me cos i know i won't see/talk to my grandparents much (and i haven't been doing that because i keep going out with friends! :() i know my grandfather's hip and all and he has voipstunt (free internet - calling - phone thing) and he can call at dirt cheap rates, i prefer not to talk to him that way because... i don't feel like... i'm reaching out to them, but, whatever works yeah.
ok. i'm feeling this way because... that's how homesickness felt in boarding. and i've to admit. it was a hard pill to swallow. there've been countless times i've woken up in cold sweat dreaming about friends/people/places in singapore. embarrassing moment there. -.-
but i know i'm going to love uni life / my life for the next 3/4 years. i know london holds so much for me to step into and grow up. while i want to hold onto whatever my mind says familiar, there's this fluttering of excitement in my heart that wants to go now! and try everything, see everything, do everything.
steady Shirin, steady.
there's one thing i can't do, and that's lose focus of my God. please pray for me regarding this!