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[musikmajor]

It's been a long time since I've been willing to commit to anyone. A long time since I've found myself emotionally attatched and vulnerabe. But now, as I sit here alone, all I can do is remember how special you've made me feel since April when I first kissed you. Despite what everyone told me and what I, myself thought, you are a sweetheart and no one has ever made me feel on top of the world as you. You say that you're afriad you'll screw it up like you always do when it becomes a "relationship." I understand where you are coming from because I am usually the one who screws relationships up. You say I'm too nice and too sweet and you don't deserve a girl like me because of everything that's happened in your past. You're afraid to hurt me.. but i'm not hard to please.


When was the last time you "got in trouble?" It certainly hasn't happened since we've been "dating." I call you a trouble maker and you say, "former trouble maker." I didn't try to change you, I never even thought anything would develop between us, but it did, and you're hooked, I can tell.

I am hoping that the fight we had on Saturday won't destroy everything we have built. I am fine casually dating you for now, but I won't wait around forever... at least I hope if I realize it's time to leave that I will have the courage to.

The smile that lies on her face
Will soon be erased from the space
In which it resides.
Soon on her lips
She won't taste your kiss,
But the ters that fall from her eyes.