wow..
summer flew by.. i cant believe its over tomorrow for me.. it had a good amount of drama that somehow engulfed me. would it be summer without it? doubtful. luckily things worked out for the best, and i can look back, shake my head, but keep a steady smile on my face.
back to school thursday night.. im excited but not. sometimes i just feel like this isnt the life for me. like i need to be pursuing something else, something i love more.. music. not so much making music, but helping it spread. something in the music industry -- but its too late to turn back now. so, i hope i can at least make it through the program and find some sort of happiness. we'll see..
the boy left last week.. it was a bittersweet day. i only cried for maybe 5 minutes after i dropped him off. it hadnt hit me yet that it'd be 3 weeks til we saw each other. i was getting used to this seeing each other every day thing. i miss seeing him everyday, a lot. but, i think its good that we only have so much time together. kinda makes everything else that more special. although, if i had my choice, we'd never be apart, or at least not THIS far apart. its frustrating some days, just because i feel like there really is this huge gapping distance between us and we wont make it.. and then there are some days where things couldnt be better (except maybe if we got to see each other..).. but all in all, this summer was what we needed. at least i think so. before, i wasnt sure if this was what i wanted, if it was REAL, or if i was just holding on to a crush that i never got to experience last year.. but, after this summer, i know its about as real as they come. i dont want to be with anyone else. not now, not ever. so... i hope things continue to work and things fall into place like they have been.
other than that, not much. went to chicago for phonak training. it was a lot of fun. met some cool friends, i had a good time. i love the people ive met through this program - they are the best friends someone could ask for. i love them.
well.. thats it.. later!
back to school thursday night.. im excited but not. sometimes i just feel like this isnt the life for me. like i need to be pursuing something else, something i love more.. music. not so much making music, but helping it spread. something in the music industry -- but its too late to turn back now. so, i hope i can at least make it through the program and find some sort of happiness. we'll see..
the boy left last week.. it was a bittersweet day. i only cried for maybe 5 minutes after i dropped him off. it hadnt hit me yet that it'd be 3 weeks til we saw each other. i was getting used to this seeing each other every day thing. i miss seeing him everyday, a lot. but, i think its good that we only have so much time together. kinda makes everything else that more special. although, if i had my choice, we'd never be apart, or at least not THIS far apart. its frustrating some days, just because i feel like there really is this huge gapping distance between us and we wont make it.. and then there are some days where things couldnt be better (except maybe if we got to see each other..).. but all in all, this summer was what we needed. at least i think so. before, i wasnt sure if this was what i wanted, if it was REAL, or if i was just holding on to a crush that i never got to experience last year.. but, after this summer, i know its about as real as they come. i dont want to be with anyone else. not now, not ever. so... i hope things continue to work and things fall into place like they have been.
other than that, not much. went to chicago for phonak training. it was a lot of fun. met some cool friends, i had a good time. i love the people ive met through this program - they are the best friends someone could ask for. i love them.
well.. thats it.. later!