Mental Breakdown
So yesterday some customer was intent on belittling me. He wouldn't leave me alone. He just kept on yelling at me. I didn't respond well. The second he finally left (to go to the other side of the store and yell at the other cashier and manager) I broke down and started crying. I ran to the break room where I proceeded to cry my eyes out and regress to a bad old habit. Needless to say my wrist is now bandaged. They let me leave early. This was only one hour into my shift. I went over to my friend Dawn's house because I didn't want to go home to be by myself. I hung out with her and her 2 kids for awhile then Camilla called me freaking out because Yvette called her at home and told her. So she had me go over to her house where we hung out all afternoon and night. I did start to feel better. But I don't think I can continue working at Ross for too much longer. The constant belittlement by customers is starting to effect me negatively. This is my second breakdown at work. Last time it was the side of a brick building when I was on my lunch. I need a new job. One away from retail. Dawn said they are looking to hire someone at her office. It would just be filing and whatnot. She said she would try to pull some strings. I don't want to get my hopes up. I just need to get out of Ross. I'm not the first one to have a mental breakdown. People treat us like shit there. The treat the merchandise like shit. They leave clothes all over the floor. They sling them over the racks. They leave their drinks everywhere. They trash the bathroom. Then they yell at us about how horrible our store is. Well no one wants to work there. Most people quit after only a week or two. We're always understaffed. We can't keep up with the mess. It's impossible. Plus we get paid shit. This whole underpaid and overworked thing is getting real old. And half of everyone at work knows what I did. I'm sure it's not long before everyone knows. They all look at me like I'm an escaped metal patient who's going to snap at any minnute. I fucking hate my job.