Twas the Friday before Christmas... and I'm alone... again... lol
Ok, so I haven't written in some time now... it is Friday, and Christmas Eve is Sunday, I am excited! I am also kinda bored... I am currently sitting at Caribou, I see Lawn, and Nan-nan, and Em, and Nate, and Matt, and Sam, and well pretty much everyone... lol and yet, I am sitting here on my lap top, by myself... and u know what.... that's ok... I hear things that remind me of high school, familiar laughs and voices, and the sounds and smells of Caribou, and as much as I said I miss Choir and HF when I was there today with Tar-Tar, I miss ISU more... lol It's soooo sad, all I wanted to do was come home and see my friends, and I realize that I really didn't ever have a group of friends here... I floated and as a result the only real close friends I have r Tar-Tar, and Jess, and since Jess and I see eachother everyday at school, and Tar-Tar has a million friends, I am left alone. No one calls, cuz they don't think of me cuz I am not in the "group" and when they do call it's usually cuz I say "Hey, Call me!"
So now I'm sitting here, wishing Mark, or Dara or Reggie or Alice or someone would come back so I could have someone to talk to... I really hope that Mark saying Sat. would be fun to go downtown was a plan, cuz I wanna go bad, and I don't know ne one else who'd wanna go with me. yeah... Mark... so we're friends, and i think I'm ok with it... lol at least I can pretend to be ok with that... lol no, seriously, like I like him a lot, and I know how I am and I will feel this way for a long time, I always do, and that means that I just have to deal with the fact that he thinks I'm "too young" yeah wtf is that? lol w/e his loss... right? I dunno... I have 24 days left here, 2 will be spent doinf Christmas things with family, and another 2 will be at Jessica's for New Years, and I HOPE EVERYONE COMES TO MY HOLIDAY GATHERING A WEEK FROM TODAY!!!!!!! if u don't knonw about it ask me, and then u should come... lol but yeah Mark and his sister might come so all the more reason u all should come, meet the boy... lol and that he is a boy... blah.... Well, I feel like a total lame sitting here alone... but w/e... it's better then sitting at home alone.... right???? Well, I'm gonna go think and do some more random shit, maybe update my Facebook, since my pictures r all on here, and this computer is WAY better then the one I have to use at home... lol ok... PEACE OUTSIDE MY LOVERS!
~Em
EDIT: I did have lovely little chats with Ally and Lawn, and then I realized Chris and Caroline and others were sitting behind me, and I had a lovely time with thme, and I am currently speaking with Dara and MArk... it is all good again... lol <3!