BLAH
So I wrote a note on facbook, and I chose to take a large section of it out, and I will be writing it in here because I still feel that facebook is lamer the lj, and I just don't feel like sharing my world with the world therefore I'm writing it all out in, here... I had a rough day, i didn't go to bed till 4 am, and then had a 9 am class, I wore gym shoes and when I rreturned my socks were bloody from my freaking heels... no good no good at all... I have like a million things to take care of, and I want so badly for this semester to be over, but at the same time I don't want mark to be gone... I really like him so much, and last night I went out with him, Lawrence, and Kaitie, funny thing about that is Kaitie moved her stuff so he could sit next her and he looked at her confussed and sat down next to me, I laughed laer about it... he then continued to play his cute little games, I like him so much rawr this is terrible... so ne who I thought I got my shit stolen, but I was mistaken, it was all in my formal purse... so yeah... lol ne who today I get back to my room after musicianship and passed out and wat was only suposed to be 45 mins, got moved later and was an hour and a half... and the WHOLE time I dreamt about Mark...no good, no good at all... the dreams were amazing, I just felt safe, and calm, and happy and loved again, and then I woke up and it was all gone... like seriously it was this amazing comfortable happiness ripped away all over again... I haven't been ok since I woke up... I fucking wore flip flops to class TWICE and didn't realize it till i was half way to the places I was going... I dunno this is really bad, I have never felt this strongly for ne one, and it was a two week, rebound thing, but he knows how I feel and plays into it, and it drives me crazy, cuz all he wants to do is get away from ISU, and all I want is to be with him... I dunno I need this break, and I need my friends, and I need a good drink... lol I know WHAT?!? I don't ever say that shit, but I just need to be around good people, and laugh and be happy again, cuz as much as I should be, I'm not... maybe next semester will be better cuz Alice will be here, and Mark will be gone, well that could actually go either way... lol but yeah I'm a mess, Dara is parking her car, her power is out, so she's staying here, but I really just wanna be alone and not here... but I'm off to deal with life cuz that's how I roll... peace