Why am I so great.
Why..do I end up truly liking a guy who doesn't know what he wants? And why am I such a great person? Andy called me tonight when I was leaving Tara's with Michael, and we talked for a little bit, but it was hard to talk on the phone cause Michael kept talking so Andy just hung up cause he couldn't get a word in, so I called him back and he said he was gonna try to sleep and he'd call me if he couldn't sleep and I told him that was fine, cause I'd probably be up..or something. And then I got a call from Andy at 3:22 am, and he just said how he couldn't sleep, he is just so upset still and all of this stuff, and he was like I'm sorry that I call you up to bitch about this stuff and I said its all right thats what I'm here for. And then he was just talking about how he wishes he could move on so bad, and he's pretty sure I would treat him better than any of his other girlfriends have. And I was like "i'm not forcing you into anything. I don't want you to go into something you don't want wholeheartedly. I truly do appreciate that you're thinking ahead like that, instead of being like many other guys who have just gone out with me, and not thought about how they might hurt me soon." And he was like I really do like you. And I was like I know. And then we just sat there in silence, and he was like I'm sorry I'm not talking, its just better to be on the phone then off it. I was just like its fine. Then he asked what I'm doing tomorrow. And I said nothing besides work. And so, he told me to give him a call when I get off work. And he attempted to go back to bed, and he asked if he can't sleep if its ok that he calls again, and I said sure. anytime. Why am I falling for this guy already? Why am I being such a good friend to a guy I met just a couple weeks ago...maybe its because of how much he reminds me of Brian? Maybe its just because he's so genuine..he's so straight-out honest with me. He doesn't say what I want to hear, because I want to hear it. But...I'm gonna continue to not be able to sleep....