Trying
I am trying so damn hard but I don't seem able to find this "path" that everyone says I should be on. What the hell am I supposed to be doing here; I don't have the answer and I don't see that anyone else will either. Darkness is all that I see no matter how hard I look. I have no one that will share my loneliness, only those that will add to it.
Unemployment sets yet another hurdle in my way. Deep below my surface I am a weak man, sometimes not a man at all. Yet here I stand among those who make life unbearable constantly fighting off the "demons" that everyone created in my mind. Looking over each shoulder is something I fear more than the other, once again I see that my life that has been give to me is shallow
I have been asked not to write this way, it seems to depress those that read what I have written here. And though it is only two people I apologize for the nature of this entry. I have come to at least one conclusion so far and that is this. I only know to write this way, though I try and try I fear the emptiness I feel is an emptiness I shall live inside daily
Unemployment sets yet another hurdle in my way. Deep below my surface I am a weak man, sometimes not a man at all. Yet here I stand among those who make life unbearable constantly fighting off the "demons" that everyone created in my mind. Looking over each shoulder is something I fear more than the other, once again I see that my life that has been give to me is shallow
I have been asked not to write this way, it seems to depress those that read what I have written here. And though it is only two people I apologize for the nature of this entry. I have come to at least one conclusion so far and that is this. I only know to write this way, though I try and try I fear the emptiness I feel is an emptiness I shall live inside daily