Change..
I need a change in my life. Maybe not necessarily change, but growth. I'm lacking growth. Perhaps that's because i'm lacking fellowship and quiet time. Especially being here in NYC where I have no friends only my mom and sister which is great, don't get me wrong. But i'm at this plateau and I don't want to climb down I only want to reach higher. Today I went with my mom to the rooftop garden and just looked out onto the water and over to Jersey on the other side, with the sun shining on the water it was just such a beautiful evening with the breeze going, it was perfect. I brought my bible with me. Unfortunately, it has been a while since I had gotten into the word. I don't know why it is so difficult for me to do that everyday. Like Kyle says, you never spend any amount of time in God's word and regret it or think you've wasted time. It's so true, I felt so calm and happy and relieved. For a moment all of my stress was gone, God is in control. "But I need to find roomies, find a job, deal with this and that and blah blah bl-" GOD IS IN CONTROL. Stop stressing, start praying. Not meaning just sit here and wait for something to fall into my lap but know that God's plan and will, will prevail over anything in my power.
The prayer in my heart lately is that God will stop being simply a friend and become so much more in my life, my father, my center, my purpose. I yearn to have Him as the center of my life and of Kyle and my's relationship but it seems like a constant struggle for me. It's hard to admit that.
Some new developments have come out and it's not my business to tell people, but it's interesting to see where God is bringing the people in my life.
I am in love with my Lord and Savior and I want to the world to have the joy that I have. It's not the easier route, but it's the happier and most fulfilling path to take. I know that with all my heart and soul.
I am so blessed, SO blessed..
I am just ready to grow and live my life with a smile on my face everyday because He has made and given us everyday we're here and for that..that should be enough. He should be enough..
I am ready to share my faith and grow in my faith. I just hope that I become a little more consistent, because it's frustrating how one minute i'm hot and the other i'm cold. He should be included in all that I do..I want to give Him all of me.
I can't wait to get back home and see all of the people I love again. But I am having a great time here. Recovery is going well, and this weekend we're heading to Martha's Vineyard, where I lived for a bit of time and spent a few summers. It's been a while but it's seriously one of those places you feel engulfed in God's majesty and beauty. I haven't been there since I started my relationship with Christ so i'm hoping that it's an awesome experience.
Well, there's my update. I really need to update more..
Love you guys.
Verse i'm in love with:
"Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by doing so some people have entertained angels without knowing it."-Hebrews 13:2
The prayer in my heart lately is that God will stop being simply a friend and become so much more in my life, my father, my center, my purpose. I yearn to have Him as the center of my life and of Kyle and my's relationship but it seems like a constant struggle for me. It's hard to admit that.
Some new developments have come out and it's not my business to tell people, but it's interesting to see where God is bringing the people in my life.
I am in love with my Lord and Savior and I want to the world to have the joy that I have. It's not the easier route, but it's the happier and most fulfilling path to take. I know that with all my heart and soul.
I am so blessed, SO blessed..
I am just ready to grow and live my life with a smile on my face everyday because He has made and given us everyday we're here and for that..that should be enough. He should be enough..
I am ready to share my faith and grow in my faith. I just hope that I become a little more consistent, because it's frustrating how one minute i'm hot and the other i'm cold. He should be included in all that I do..I want to give Him all of me.
I can't wait to get back home and see all of the people I love again. But I am having a great time here. Recovery is going well, and this weekend we're heading to Martha's Vineyard, where I lived for a bit of time and spent a few summers. It's been a while but it's seriously one of those places you feel engulfed in God's majesty and beauty. I haven't been there since I started my relationship with Christ so i'm hoping that it's an awesome experience.
Well, there's my update. I really need to update more..
Love you guys.
Verse i'm in love with:
"Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by doing so some people have entertained angels without knowing it."-Hebrews 13:2