You have restored me..
Life is, different..
Life has meaning to me now.
I don't know where God will take me, but he's told me my five year plan this weekend. I didn't expect for my list to be so long but..i'm here for Him.
Atlanta Christmas Conference, I had so many expectations though I tried not too. I was scared that perhaps all the hype people had built up would let me down. On the contrary, I totally underestimated what I was about to experience.
Thursday night: I was on 45-60 minutes of sleep. Seriously. Slept a little in the car but not much. Had a great time driving up with my girls. I'm really happy we left early, we got there at 2:30 only 30 minutes into the 4 hour registration time, basically no one was there. I was anxious and excited. We brought our stuff up to room 609 and just fell into the beds that felt as if they were made of clouds. We were very blessed to be able to stay in one of the most beautiful hotels i've ever seen. I, the dork I am, unpacked my stuff and put my clothes into a drawer. Then luckily we all got to shower and get refreshed. We headed to the mall and had some not-so-great food and then headed back to see everybody and wait for campus time and the first meeting. Campus time was interesting, we were all tired and I think everyone was just warming up to the weekend. There was a weird feeling the air. Not really a bad one, just this feeling. Something was going on. I had the sharpest pains in my stomach, the worst i've felt in a long time if ever and they had been happening all day. I took some meds for it but it didn't help. I remembered reading about spiritual warfare in Captivating and I was curious if it was Satan trying to mess with me. He uses normal occurences to get to us so that we can't even see it's him and it was the first day of ACC. I used the prayers I had read about them praying to use against him. Standing and waiting for the first meeting I just kept praying "In Jesus' name I command you to leave" and things like that. Within 5 minutes the pains were gone, and they didn't come back all weekend. Praise God. The first meeting was good, Clayton King was amazing. But still, we were all tired and still warming up to the weekend. I don't remember exactly what went on afterwards I think it involved the stupid ninja game..hahaha. But yeah once I got into bed I was passed out.
The next day God started talking to me. Summer projects were talked about and before they mentioned Wyoming I saw the card and something tugged on my heart. When they first mentioned it, it was like neon signs were being lit and I couldn't stop thinking about it. I know God wants me there this Summer. I wasn't even planning on doing a Summer Project. Throughout the weekend he spoke to my heart and within the first couple days I knew that after graduation I was going to take a year off and do missionary work, or do Stint. Yeah that's HUGE..and it's a while away, but I know it's something i'm gonna do. I'm also gonna do a SP for the next few Summers. Oh and I thinkbefore I graduate i'm gonna lead a bible study. Yeah..wow it's overwhelming even as I think about it. I also got an answer to a question burdening my heart. I didn't think he would answer it how I asked Him too, but He did. He surprises you like that.
I also met SO many people..so many people I haven't even seen at Crusade but who I feel and know will be the closest friends i'll ever have. They are the most sincere, loving people I could ever know. They are such genuine people who have a love for God that makes me smile. I am so blessed to have these people in my life. I also thank God for the friends i've had for a while, who will always be there for me as I am for them. You all keep me strong, we must keep each other accountable. I love you guys.
This weekend changed my life. I have never felt closer to Jesus and stronger in my walk. He died for our sins. He was PERFECT, he was what we couldn't be. He died, he felt the weight of ALL of our sins. He was crucified and died for us, just so we could be free to love God and not have to feel guilty or shameful. I know some of you don't have a relationship with God, but if you have any questions or just want to talk. I don't know as much as other people. But I'm here. I never will force you to have my opinions or shove anything down your throats. But I am seriously here for you guys. I wish I could bottle up this happiness and the happiness i've felt lately because there has been more joy in my life then ever, no matter how hard things have gotten. Wow..God is incredible..praise Him.
God bless you guys.
lovelovelove
Katy
"A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out"
My new favorite worship song. Perfectly wraps up my weekend.
Life has meaning to me now.
I don't know where God will take me, but he's told me my five year plan this weekend. I didn't expect for my list to be so long but..i'm here for Him.
Atlanta Christmas Conference, I had so many expectations though I tried not too. I was scared that perhaps all the hype people had built up would let me down. On the contrary, I totally underestimated what I was about to experience.
Thursday night: I was on 45-60 minutes of sleep. Seriously. Slept a little in the car but not much. Had a great time driving up with my girls. I'm really happy we left early, we got there at 2:30 only 30 minutes into the 4 hour registration time, basically no one was there. I was anxious and excited. We brought our stuff up to room 609 and just fell into the beds that felt as if they were made of clouds. We were very blessed to be able to stay in one of the most beautiful hotels i've ever seen. I, the dork I am, unpacked my stuff and put my clothes into a drawer. Then luckily we all got to shower and get refreshed. We headed to the mall and had some not-so-great food and then headed back to see everybody and wait for campus time and the first meeting. Campus time was interesting, we were all tired and I think everyone was just warming up to the weekend. There was a weird feeling the air. Not really a bad one, just this feeling. Something was going on. I had the sharpest pains in my stomach, the worst i've felt in a long time if ever and they had been happening all day. I took some meds for it but it didn't help. I remembered reading about spiritual warfare in Captivating and I was curious if it was Satan trying to mess with me. He uses normal occurences to get to us so that we can't even see it's him and it was the first day of ACC. I used the prayers I had read about them praying to use against him. Standing and waiting for the first meeting I just kept praying "In Jesus' name I command you to leave" and things like that. Within 5 minutes the pains were gone, and they didn't come back all weekend. Praise God. The first meeting was good, Clayton King was amazing. But still, we were all tired and still warming up to the weekend. I don't remember exactly what went on afterwards I think it involved the stupid ninja game..hahaha. But yeah once I got into bed I was passed out.
The next day God started talking to me. Summer projects were talked about and before they mentioned Wyoming I saw the card and something tugged on my heart. When they first mentioned it, it was like neon signs were being lit and I couldn't stop thinking about it. I know God wants me there this Summer. I wasn't even planning on doing a Summer Project. Throughout the weekend he spoke to my heart and within the first couple days I knew that after graduation I was going to take a year off and do missionary work, or do Stint. Yeah that's HUGE..and it's a while away, but I know it's something i'm gonna do. I'm also gonna do a SP for the next few Summers. Oh and I thinkbefore I graduate i'm gonna lead a bible study. Yeah..wow it's overwhelming even as I think about it. I also got an answer to a question burdening my heart. I didn't think he would answer it how I asked Him too, but He did. He surprises you like that.
I also met SO many people..so many people I haven't even seen at Crusade but who I feel and know will be the closest friends i'll ever have. They are the most sincere, loving people I could ever know. They are such genuine people who have a love for God that makes me smile. I am so blessed to have these people in my life. I also thank God for the friends i've had for a while, who will always be there for me as I am for them. You all keep me strong, we must keep each other accountable. I love you guys.
This weekend changed my life. I have never felt closer to Jesus and stronger in my walk. He died for our sins. He was PERFECT, he was what we couldn't be. He died, he felt the weight of ALL of our sins. He was crucified and died for us, just so we could be free to love God and not have to feel guilty or shameful. I know some of you don't have a relationship with God, but if you have any questions or just want to talk. I don't know as much as other people. But I'm here. I never will force you to have my opinions or shove anything down your throats. But I am seriously here for you guys. I wish I could bottle up this happiness and the happiness i've felt lately because there has been more joy in my life then ever, no matter how hard things have gotten. Wow..God is incredible..praise Him.
God bless you guys.
lovelovelove
Katy
"A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out"
My new favorite worship song. Perfectly wraps up my weekend.