Numb
Lately I havent heard anything from Logan. Last time I saw him was a week ago, and once, briefly, in the halls between classes.
He texted me last night asking for money. He said he needed $25 to give to his parents to pay for his tickets. For one, I dont have it. I cant cash my check till tomorrow. Two, I'm not going to go out of my way to let him borrow money when he wont even speak to me. He obviously is getting my texts, because he messaged me back after I told him why I couldnt give it to him. So I dont see why he ignores me when I just ask him what's up.
I'm going numb. I guess that's a good thing. I dont need to cry over this. I'm lonely, but I guess that's how it's going to stay. I can have my pick of almost any guy I want, but I cant have the one I do. Life's not fair. I know that well.
Oh well. I have to go to work. I'll fill my head with fantasies written by someone else and wash away into them so I dont have to think about my own life.
He texted me last night asking for money. He said he needed $25 to give to his parents to pay for his tickets. For one, I dont have it. I cant cash my check till tomorrow. Two, I'm not going to go out of my way to let him borrow money when he wont even speak to me. He obviously is getting my texts, because he messaged me back after I told him why I couldnt give it to him. So I dont see why he ignores me when I just ask him what's up.
I'm going numb. I guess that's a good thing. I dont need to cry over this. I'm lonely, but I guess that's how it's going to stay. I can have my pick of almost any guy I want, but I cant have the one I do. Life's not fair. I know that well.
Oh well. I have to go to work. I'll fill my head with fantasies written by someone else and wash away into them so I dont have to think about my own life.