then what do u want to know? i've bore my soul. i don't know what else to tell you. i've told you about my hopes, my dreams and my past. i don't have any secrets left. i don't know what you haven't told me, and i need to know who told u about me needing a car.... we need to talk. obviously. but i can't talk about this on the phone,and u freeze up and cry in person. so how am i supposed to know? you say u want me to know. but you don't. you try to get rid of this feeling by trying to find my demons. but i'm sry. i told you about my demons. i told you all i can tell. it's your turn. i feel like the whole time we've been going out, i get the kayliegh that everyone else gets. thats not what i signed up for. i want the real kayleigh joy. not the mask. the balls in your court. i don't have anything to say. but you have more than your fare share of secrets.
i dont know... there is just so much family stuff going on... and so much stuff that i have to keep in confidentiality that its so overwhelming... and i dont want to put the burden on you knowing... its just something i have to learn to deal with on my own... but i would really like it if you were here to help... not this weekend b/c you have to work... but sometime very soon we are going to have to sit down and just talk... talk until there is nothing left to talk about... talk until we are sick of each other, and know everything... i dont know... but you are the first person ive ever felt this serious about... and i WANT to open up to you... i WANT to tell you absolutly everything... i just need to know how... and if you could just be there to tell me everything is going to be ok, that would be amazing... because sometimes all it takes is a little reassurance and guidance... and it sometimes really hard to pour your heart and soul out to a counsler who has to hear atleast 20 other people do the same thing everyday... but i ♥ you...
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ya know, u're about he only one. and i like it better that way. i don't have to worry about me then. so plz, i love ya, but don't worry about me. becuase the more other people worry about me, the more i noticed i'm so fucked. if you ignore my problems, i can to.
she's not alone. face your problems. they're easier to deal with one at a time rather than piled mile-high. please talk to me if you need help and know that i'm here. take care!
i don't need people to hear me out anymore.i haven't a secret left that everyone dosen't know. it's better that way, please, don't worry about me. i'd rather worry about everyone else then worry about me. it's easier this way. right now, i'm not thinking about the long term "this is gonna pile up" kinda thing, right now, i'm trying to find reasons to wake up every day. reasons to breathe my next. i don't want to worry about me, b/c that will be my last deep breathe. i breathe the worrys of others, and the fears of the hurt. i don't think about my own anymore. this comment makes no sense.
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im sure i speak for many when i say that im worried about you
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