F.E.A.R.
Well, I'm still here. That seems to be the general consesus for my feelings of late.
I avoided the strongarm tactics of local law enforcement. I dodged every bullet and lost all persuers, and didn't drink the Kool-Aid. So why do I feel like this? Its some weird limbo, not quite depressed, but not quite happy. Its like I'm apprehensive, but I don't know what about.
It could be the fact that I'm buried in schoolwork this semester. 6 courses, 3 400 level ones, and 3 300 level ones. What the fuck was I thinking? So much pressure to hurry up and graduate that I'm going to be drowning in a sea of Chaucer, Wilde and Guiman. I don't understand why I did it, but its done, now all that's left is to see if I can manage it.
Emily and I had a nice conversation about me and some of my more retarded feelings. She was surprisingly attentive and compassionate, which is somewhat unusual for her. We watched a few (awesome) episodes of the Avatar before she had to leave.
On Friday to "celebrate" me getting off the proverbial hook, we visited Kristin at her place of work, the Cheesecake Factory. A longtime favorite of Em and I, the food, while pricey, is good, the atmosphere is awesome, and in general, we always have a really good time. Brendan met us there and I consumed 4 Long Island Iced Teas in about 2 hours, and was pretty much in space. I'm pretty sure we made fools of ourselves, but Kristin said she didn't mind. We left her a generous tip after engaging in another Ice Fight. Is there nowhere that is safe from our wrath!? We went to go see Smokin' Aces, which was an awesome movie by the way. It was like a minature Snatch with more action. just not quite as good. Sure, the characters were all 1-Dimensional, but the stylish editing, easy plot, pretty faces and overall style of the movie kept me glued to the screen, not to mention that 1-dimension worked for those characters really well. Jeremy Piven was awesome even as he was being hunted, and newcomers Common (yes the rapper) and Ms. Keys (yes the singer) did equally well. All in all I'd recommend it to anyone and everyone who enjoys a good action flick.
After pondering a bit, maybe the "something" tha'ts been bothering me is Amie. She was really a poor victim in all of this, and our friendship hasn't ever been the same since. I feel bad, but on the other hand, I really don't know how to face her. Maybe that's me being a pussy, but i'm not sure. Someone as awesome as her shouldn't ever have to deal with the mistakes that were made, both on my part and on the part of the Powers that Be. I should probably call. I should probably do alot of things.
I avoided the strongarm tactics of local law enforcement. I dodged every bullet and lost all persuers, and didn't drink the Kool-Aid. So why do I feel like this? Its some weird limbo, not quite depressed, but not quite happy. Its like I'm apprehensive, but I don't know what about.
It could be the fact that I'm buried in schoolwork this semester. 6 courses, 3 400 level ones, and 3 300 level ones. What the fuck was I thinking? So much pressure to hurry up and graduate that I'm going to be drowning in a sea of Chaucer, Wilde and Guiman. I don't understand why I did it, but its done, now all that's left is to see if I can manage it.
Emily and I had a nice conversation about me and some of my more retarded feelings. She was surprisingly attentive and compassionate, which is somewhat unusual for her. We watched a few (awesome) episodes of the Avatar before she had to leave.
On Friday to "celebrate" me getting off the proverbial hook, we visited Kristin at her place of work, the Cheesecake Factory. A longtime favorite of Em and I, the food, while pricey, is good, the atmosphere is awesome, and in general, we always have a really good time. Brendan met us there and I consumed 4 Long Island Iced Teas in about 2 hours, and was pretty much in space. I'm pretty sure we made fools of ourselves, but Kristin said she didn't mind. We left her a generous tip after engaging in another Ice Fight. Is there nowhere that is safe from our wrath!? We went to go see Smokin' Aces, which was an awesome movie by the way. It was like a minature Snatch with more action. just not quite as good. Sure, the characters were all 1-Dimensional, but the stylish editing, easy plot, pretty faces and overall style of the movie kept me glued to the screen, not to mention that 1-dimension worked for those characters really well. Jeremy Piven was awesome even as he was being hunted, and newcomers Common (yes the rapper) and Ms. Keys (yes the singer) did equally well. All in all I'd recommend it to anyone and everyone who enjoys a good action flick.
After pondering a bit, maybe the "something" tha'ts been bothering me is Amie. She was really a poor victim in all of this, and our friendship hasn't ever been the same since. I feel bad, but on the other hand, I really don't know how to face her. Maybe that's me being a pussy, but i'm not sure. Someone as awesome as her shouldn't ever have to deal with the mistakes that were made, both on my part and on the part of the Powers that Be. I should probably call. I should probably do alot of things.