I should most likely stop crying before class...
It's been a really weird, really stressful day. Don't mean to bitch, but it's true.
I started out waking up around 12pm. I have a later start today, 3:30pm, so I don't need to get my ass up until later. I rolled out of bed and got on Metra. I was feeling on top of the world. Loving life and everything that the sun touches. I'm also developing an idea for an Acen panel this year.
Working title: "Why everyone hates Haruno Sakura; Feminism in Anime"
Anyway, I had to read this book for my memoirs class that was the first thing that got my goat. It's called Truth and Beauty. It's the story of this woman who meets this other woman at U of Iowa's Grad school. I'll leave it at that in case anyone wants to read it. Not my favorite book. I can't wait until Jessecia writes a better one. ^^;
In my Film class we watched a part of this film that was a doc about how corps. control America to the point of controlling the news. The part we watched focused on this news team in Florida that found out that cows in America were giving milk with growth hormone in it that causes cancer. It's been banned in Canada and Europe, but it's used here. Fox news wouldn't let them put it on the air and there was a long legal battle that ended with the news team being fired.
At this point I started to freak out. Considering that milk is one of the primary things I drink since I don't like water much outside the bottled form and my father thinks pop will kill us all. I started wondering about cancer and worrying about dying at a young age. I know, over reacting. I see that now but I started to get scared.
After class I went to try and make an apt. with my advisor concerning my status in the school of education. You see, I was supposed to take the Basic Skills test last year. This is a standard test that covers everything and anything a IL teacher should know. I've put off taking this test out of fear of it. I'm horrible at these kinds of tests. They all say I should be drooling out the side of my mouth and working with half a brain. I hate feeling stupid. I don't think I'm an idiot really, but I always feel like one when taking one of these tests. I'm scared that I'll waste money amongst other things...
I was supposed to have passed this test and applied for advanced standing in the school of ed. The office was closed so I couldn't get an apt. On the other hand there was some paper work I could take and as I read it over, I wanted to die. I felt so stupid. I still do. So scared. If I don't have my advanced standing, I can't take the classes I need. I can't student teach. The school of ed. could drop me. I still want to cry. I called Joe and cried. I'm scared about my future now. Actually terrified.
I then called my mother and left her a message. I did the same to Suma. I thought it would be best to go to night class even though I didn't want to and didn't like the book. My mom and Suma called me back while I was in class. When I called my mom back I cried again. I asked her to come pick me up from night class cause I didn't feel like taking Metra home.
After class I talked to her and managed to get a grip. I also talked to Suma. Then I tried going on-line to make an apt. with my advisor... only to find I can't. According to the website I have no advisor. I'm the forgotten English teacher.
I hope tomorrow goes better... I can't say I want next week to come, it's mid-terms. =P But I still hope for the best.
I started out waking up around 12pm. I have a later start today, 3:30pm, so I don't need to get my ass up until later. I rolled out of bed and got on Metra. I was feeling on top of the world. Loving life and everything that the sun touches. I'm also developing an idea for an Acen panel this year.
Working title: "Why everyone hates Haruno Sakura; Feminism in Anime"
Anyway, I had to read this book for my memoirs class that was the first thing that got my goat. It's called Truth and Beauty. It's the story of this woman who meets this other woman at U of Iowa's Grad school. I'll leave it at that in case anyone wants to read it. Not my favorite book. I can't wait until Jessecia writes a better one. ^^;
In my Film class we watched a part of this film that was a doc about how corps. control America to the point of controlling the news. The part we watched focused on this news team in Florida that found out that cows in America were giving milk with growth hormone in it that causes cancer. It's been banned in Canada and Europe, but it's used here. Fox news wouldn't let them put it on the air and there was a long legal battle that ended with the news team being fired.
At this point I started to freak out. Considering that milk is one of the primary things I drink since I don't like water much outside the bottled form and my father thinks pop will kill us all. I started wondering about cancer and worrying about dying at a young age. I know, over reacting. I see that now but I started to get scared.
After class I went to try and make an apt. with my advisor concerning my status in the school of education. You see, I was supposed to take the Basic Skills test last year. This is a standard test that covers everything and anything a IL teacher should know. I've put off taking this test out of fear of it. I'm horrible at these kinds of tests. They all say I should be drooling out the side of my mouth and working with half a brain. I hate feeling stupid. I don't think I'm an idiot really, but I always feel like one when taking one of these tests. I'm scared that I'll waste money amongst other things...
I was supposed to have passed this test and applied for advanced standing in the school of ed. The office was closed so I couldn't get an apt. On the other hand there was some paper work I could take and as I read it over, I wanted to die. I felt so stupid. I still do. So scared. If I don't have my advanced standing, I can't take the classes I need. I can't student teach. The school of ed. could drop me. I still want to cry. I called Joe and cried. I'm scared about my future now. Actually terrified.
I then called my mother and left her a message. I did the same to Suma. I thought it would be best to go to night class even though I didn't want to and didn't like the book. My mom and Suma called me back while I was in class. When I called my mom back I cried again. I asked her to come pick me up from night class cause I didn't feel like taking Metra home.
After class I talked to her and managed to get a grip. I also talked to Suma. Then I tried going on-line to make an apt. with my advisor... only to find I can't. According to the website I have no advisor. I'm the forgotten English teacher.
I hope tomorrow goes better... I can't say I want next week to come, it's mid-terms. =P But I still hope for the best.