That was a shitty post, i apologize
Friends are good, like my dear friends here, Avram, David, Kate, Matt, Dzuy, so many to name.. My mother as well; the mundane and animalist hedonistic urges of life are disgusting and the only future is in a fruition of my goals and of a postive outlook. What good is sex without a place to channel it through (aka love)? I have been eternally inspired by David, who will be a future master sarod player, and his long hours of practice and zen like way of respecting life and his studies. Already, my Nonet comes close to completion, then onto bigger and better things, already hours of practice in the practice rooms, eclesastical scales of pure perfect technicality. It is like nourishment for the soul and mind. I have done much thinking and batteling of my future, (things change fast here at calarts, so many influences). I want my piano playing to only extend to something of a passainate hobby, but contiunall evoloving my improvisation, and Clarinet will become a force again in my life. A long Range will not change, it is my future to do this.
Performer composer in the 3rd year.
My final recitals here will include a Performer night, and a Composer night.
Performer night will include a full program of Poulenc.
Trio for Oboe, Basson and PIano, Me on piano, Allen Vogel (possible the most amazing beautiful sweet hearted man i have ever met, and the oboe teacher) and bassoinst TBD.
Piano Concerto no. 1 Me on the solo part, Vicky Ray (the Piano Faculty) playing the orchestral reduction.
and...
Clarinet Sonata Me on Clarinet, Vicky Ray on Piano.
My night of composition will include a break through of groove, improvistation, and sound to lift hearts to the heavens and find harmony with the Divine. Academics offer no transedental or metaphyisical quality; music MUST have this! (not all have to, but i want my music to do this.)
I have changed my prospects to be a serious composer but also rather then a serious clarinettist or pianist, but to be a serious Balinese Gamelan player and the tackling of learning a traditional Indian instrument, the music of north india is so overwhelming. Nothing that i have heard before has touch me as much as this, and i must contribute in a way that gives me the ability to fully utilize and explore the ragas. Unforchantly, the Harmonium does not does this; so thus i must think of something akin to the Sitar, (which i do not think will be possible consdering the devotion soley that instrment alone), the Saz, an reed instrument, i am consulting my Guruji tommorow on this very subject. My G5 is ready for re-installation. I hope everyone has a pleasent day.
P.S. I am sorry to all of those who witness such stupidity and pathetic self-indulgenence on my part; the mind has been a mess with overthinking and overemotion. I have said some regretable things that i do not think some friends will ever take back unforchantly, I want to remedy this issue as much as i can, and i will do everything in my power to do this. I love you too much to treat you in such a way.
Performer composer in the 3rd year.
My final recitals here will include a Performer night, and a Composer night.
Performer night will include a full program of Poulenc.
Trio for Oboe, Basson and PIano, Me on piano, Allen Vogel (possible the most amazing beautiful sweet hearted man i have ever met, and the oboe teacher) and bassoinst TBD.
Piano Concerto no. 1 Me on the solo part, Vicky Ray (the Piano Faculty) playing the orchestral reduction.
and...
Clarinet Sonata Me on Clarinet, Vicky Ray on Piano.
My night of composition will include a break through of groove, improvistation, and sound to lift hearts to the heavens and find harmony with the Divine. Academics offer no transedental or metaphyisical quality; music MUST have this! (not all have to, but i want my music to do this.)
I have changed my prospects to be a serious composer but also rather then a serious clarinettist or pianist, but to be a serious Balinese Gamelan player and the tackling of learning a traditional Indian instrument, the music of north india is so overwhelming. Nothing that i have heard before has touch me as much as this, and i must contribute in a way that gives me the ability to fully utilize and explore the ragas. Unforchantly, the Harmonium does not does this; so thus i must think of something akin to the Sitar, (which i do not think will be possible consdering the devotion soley that instrment alone), the Saz, an reed instrument, i am consulting my Guruji tommorow on this very subject. My G5 is ready for re-installation. I hope everyone has a pleasent day.
P.S. I am sorry to all of those who witness such stupidity and pathetic self-indulgenence on my part; the mind has been a mess with overthinking and overemotion. I have said some regretable things that i do not think some friends will ever take back unforchantly, I want to remedy this issue as much as i can, and i will do everything in my power to do this. I love you too much to treat you in such a way.