Yesterday's events and today's

[music_addiction]

Yesterday afterschool, I had to stay for Concert Band three audition. I was sooooooooooooooo nervous. During class, I was already starting to get nervous, but it was nothing compared to the panic I felt as the audition gets closer. Everyone who were going to try out were all doing their scales in the band room so the whold band room was SO noisy!!!!! It was really distracting for me because I was also reviewing my scales!!!!!! And my friend next to me, was playing all her scales Freakin perfectly and FAST!!!!!! It was even more unnerving and distracting for me! My friend actually kept complaing about how she though she wasn't going to make it because she sucked and etc. I was SO F**KING PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What did she have to complain about when she exceled in the flute!!!!!!!!! Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I am soooooo mad when I think about it!!!! Even sopthmores were saying how GOOD she is and telling her not to go because she will make them sound bad or something!!!!!!!!!!!!! She had only played the flute for three years when some had played even longer, but were still not as good as her! I have only been playing for a year, but I was thinking about the skill at the time and she kept using that as a excuse about how I have only been playing for such a short time and I am already pretty good. I have worked really HARD JUST SO I COULD GET IN TO BAND THREE EARLY!!!!!!!!!! But I was delayed in my plans due to my F**KING BRACES!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I also have a special thing in there because of my special case so it was and still is hard for me to play the flute! At first I couldn't even play the basic notes!!!!!!!!! I had to almost start from the basic and then after I got better, I went back to preparing for the try outs!!!! But by that time, it was already kinda too late!!!! So I wasn't going to try out but my private flute teacher made me!!!!!!! SO I WORKED SO HARD FOR NO FREAKIN REASON!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause I know I will not get in because I think I played really bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*sigh* Oh well.....I need to go....my lunch is calling out to me and later I need to go to art class(oil paint)! Bye bye!!! ^^