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so yeah not too much has been going on with me right now. i had a pretty good weekend i did homework most of the time but you know you have to do that sometimes. i had to get up before the sun on saturday to go to community service..which was alot of fun bc i got to see like 500 dogs! i have a math test that i should be studying for but i cant i have been studying since 12 so i have a little while till i actually have to start studying! so you know how you get on myspace and you like go into friends of friends of friends, well i was doing that today and i found some intresting things. like for one there is this girl who says im one of her best friends and wants to be there for me and wants me to be there for her, but yet when something is wrong with her she never tells me..even if i ask, i dont know but when there is someting wrong with me and i dont tell her she feels like i dont like her anymore..and she wants me to tell her. i mean i would love for us to be able to talk again and be like it used to be but we both have to put the effort into it. so just for anyones information im not writing this to stir up anything i really am not..everyone is just kinda putting out their problems out there so i figured it was my turn. so there are some other things that have been buggin g me..like i miss the whole group hanging out i really do..i dont know sometimes i dont bc i feel like when we are all together someone has a problem with someone and so there is just tension. last night really annoyed me...as i was coming back from walmart we were waiting for you guys to pull out of the driveway and we were about to put down the window so we could talk to you and see what was up...but no you guys just looked right at us and kept driving. then one of you comes back at like midnight and says hey and then gets something and then leaves again. never has even the common courtesy to tell your best friend (either one) what you are doing or where you have been for two days or what you are up to. you always get mad or upset about the three of us hanging out or leaving or whatever but why should it be any different for you. im supposed to be one of your best friends here better yet part of your family and yet i have have to read about your family and friends on the internet and never hear anything from you. how do you expect me to be here for you? how come when i tell someone something it always ends up being told to the rest of your little click but when i ask or try to help i cant get anything. im confused, what kind of friend do you want me to be? another thing...this is pretty much none of my business but i dont want anyone hurt, you have a best friend and you both tell eachother that you love the other but in his profile he says that you guys are together and that you guys will make it work and that your the most amazing girl ever...but you get a little touchy when someone writes on a facebook wall about how they love him and cant wait to see him. i dont understand what makes it so different. its kinda like being a hypocrite and that is the worst thing to be or even kinda be. i have no doubt that he means alot to you, and i know this doesnt really involve me except for the fact that it does bc we are all family and i dont want anyone hurt. now i know you miss your family and miss home but some of the things you say and talk about make the rest of us (or at least me) feel like you dont like being here with us and taht you hate it here. if you hate that much and you cant handle it anymore then you need to really think about life and see waht you want to do with it. i like you being here and we have fun but i cant stand when you talk about not wanting to be here and wanting to go home and everything like that..it just kind of makes me feel like im jsut the "friend" that will be here if you need me and the "friend in savannah" but not really a friend. i know you dont like to open up to anyone...but i mean i hate it too, but i haev trusted you and told you things that i dont just go tell anyone..doesnt taht count for something? i mean i was here for you when you moved here and were having issues...i didnt want to be but i was willing to bc you were my friend and i cared about you. i dk...i really dont want you to take this stuff the wrong way i am just venting...and getting it all out...most of it is over and nothing can be done about it...but i just thought it should be out there.