took a turn for the worse
I am so far behind I keep thinking that somehow this means I should come out ahead, but so far that doesn't look like it's happening. So I still owe comments, which is this Sisyphean task that weighs on me like the world (and man, don't you love when I mix metaphors? This is why I avoid them in my stories - I am *terrible* at metaphors, or at least, I'm terrible at metaphors that sound like anything anyone but me would actually say).
And the thing is, I have a policy (shut up) of trying to answer every comment I get, or at least every comment where I have something to say in response, and overall, I don't want to change that, but I'm afraid for the next few weeks, that's just not going to happen. It's not that I don't love you all, and it's not that I don't truly appreciate the comments and the conversation and the feedback, because I do, more than I can possibly say. It's more that I am already so far behind on stuff I feel does need answering, because I didn't say I wouldn't, and also Remix, and also writing. God, writing. How do I love thee, even when you're making me batshit?
39,300 words on girl!Sam and three scenes left (well, until luzdeestrellas points out that I am yet again rushing the ending and something else needs adding). I have a feeling I will want to talk a lot about this story when I'm done and it's posted, more than just my flailing over word count and pacing. When I finish it (when, see, not if, because goddammit, I am finishing this thing if it kills me), it will be the longest finished piece of writing I've ever written (I have a couple of 24K word stories in XMM, and I think the longest story I wrote in HP was 16K, but both of those were remixes; Consumption, the unfinished XMM novel, is 38K words, so this is even longer than that), and the navel-gazing that goes along with that is commensurately epic. *g*
Anyway. The plan is to write, to answer older comments, to do remix data entry. Anything else is probably going to slide, and I'm going to try not to feel guilty about that.
There's still time to sign up for Remix, btw, especially if you've written more five or more 500 word stories in Torchwood or Heroes. Once I catch up on the data entry, I'll have a better handle on what fandoms are in need of more people to be remixed and...
Every year I have to explain this, and it never gets less confusing, I guess because there are always new people signing up.
Here's the deal. Lots and lots of people want to write in Shiny New Fandom and/or Shiny Small Fandom! However, unless lots of people have already written in Shiny New and/or Small Fandom, there aren't a lot of stories to be remixed, and thus, many people who want Shiny New/Small Fandom end up with same old, same old Giant Old Fandom. This is why it's important to recruit amongst your friends and fellow fandom denizens. If there are no Shiny New Fandom stories to remix, you can't be assigned to remix in Shiny New Fandom.
I'm not sure how much clearer I can be about that, but that's it in a nutshell.
Also, for the love of all that's holy, please to update your website/fic index/memories/whatever so that the five 500 word stories are easily accessible - if they can't be found, you may be deemed ineligible in that fandom, and that just makes my life harder, and I'm already cold, cranky and sleep-deprived. You really don't want to make it worse.
Anyway, I hope this public announcement that I suck at answering comments but I'm really trying will help me feel less guilty at failing at fandom for the moment, and I hope you can find it in your cold black hearts to be understanding. It's not that I'm ignoring you, it's just that I'm ignoring you right now.
Um. That is all. New FNL tonight. Yay!
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And the thing is, I have a policy (shut up) of trying to answer every comment I get, or at least every comment where I have something to say in response, and overall, I don't want to change that, but I'm afraid for the next few weeks, that's just not going to happen. It's not that I don't love you all, and it's not that I don't truly appreciate the comments and the conversation and the feedback, because I do, more than I can possibly say. It's more that I am already so far behind on stuff I feel does need answering, because I didn't say I wouldn't, and also Remix, and also writing. God, writing. How do I love thee, even when you're making me batshit?
39,300 words on girl!Sam and three scenes left (well, until luzdeestrellas points out that I am yet again rushing the ending and something else needs adding). I have a feeling I will want to talk a lot about this story when I'm done and it's posted, more than just my flailing over word count and pacing. When I finish it (when, see, not if, because goddammit, I am finishing this thing if it kills me), it will be the longest finished piece of writing I've ever written (I have a couple of 24K word stories in XMM, and I think the longest story I wrote in HP was 16K, but both of those were remixes; Consumption, the unfinished XMM novel, is 38K words, so this is even longer than that), and the navel-gazing that goes along with that is commensurately epic. *g*
Anyway. The plan is to write, to answer older comments, to do remix data entry. Anything else is probably going to slide, and I'm going to try not to feel guilty about that.
There's still time to sign up for Remix, btw, especially if you've written more five or more 500 word stories in Torchwood or Heroes. Once I catch up on the data entry, I'll have a better handle on what fandoms are in need of more people to be remixed and...
Every year I have to explain this, and it never gets less confusing, I guess because there are always new people signing up.
Here's the deal. Lots and lots of people want to write in Shiny New Fandom and/or Shiny Small Fandom! However, unless lots of people have already written in Shiny New and/or Small Fandom, there aren't a lot of stories to be remixed, and thus, many people who want Shiny New/Small Fandom end up with same old, same old Giant Old Fandom. This is why it's important to recruit amongst your friends and fellow fandom denizens. If there are no Shiny New Fandom stories to remix, you can't be assigned to remix in Shiny New Fandom.
I'm not sure how much clearer I can be about that, but that's it in a nutshell.
Also, for the love of all that's holy, please to update your website/fic index/memories/whatever so that the five 500 word stories are easily accessible - if they can't be found, you may be deemed ineligible in that fandom, and that just makes my life harder, and I'm already cold, cranky and sleep-deprived. You really don't want to make it worse.
Anyway, I hope this public announcement that I suck at answering comments but I'm really trying will help me feel less guilty at failing at fandom for the moment, and I hope you can find it in your cold black hearts to be understanding. It's not that I'm ignoring you, it's just that I'm ignoring you right now.
Um. That is all. New FNL tonight. Yay!
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