16. If you could change one moment in your past, what would it be?
If I could change one single moment in my past I'm not sure I'd want to. I could say I'd change the fact Mary died that night. That moment spiraled what my life would become. Sure I'd have had a happy life with my family. I would have grown old with my Mary. Dean and Sam would have had normal childhoods like any kid should have. They really deserved all the chances to play sports. Go out for the debate team. Drama club. Whatever they had wanted. What they would have chosen and not what they were given to do.
They deserved a mother that loved them, who would tuck them in at night. Kiss their foreheads and whisper softly to them. Like Mary used to do when she told them angels were watching over them. Guess when she died that did become true. Sure she was watching over us. Hmm guess there may have been a few times she may have wanted to swat me a few good times.
See I could change that night, change what happened. Maybe not have left the bed. Stayed with Mary, and gone with her like usual to check in on Sam. I would have been there with her and would have been able to help both her and Sammy. I wasn't and as much as I know I shouldn't blame myself I do. I'm getting over it because when I reached for her the flames got hotter and jumped out at me. I knew I had to leave Mary as much as it pained me, it was as if i heard her voice in my head. Telling me to go, telling me to go get the boys. That they needed me. So I left.
I could say I'd change all that but I won't. I will say there is nothing in my past I would change. The boys they grew up well. They've become good men. I always reminded them no matter what their mother loved them and that they really had an angel watching over them.
I wouldn't change it because they means all those people me and the boys saved would have died. I may have lost Mary but I've been able to prevent others going through that same pain.
John Winchester
Supernatural
376 words
They deserved a mother that loved them, who would tuck them in at night. Kiss their foreheads and whisper softly to them. Like Mary used to do when she told them angels were watching over them. Guess when she died that did become true. Sure she was watching over us. Hmm guess there may have been a few times she may have wanted to swat me a few good times.
See I could change that night, change what happened. Maybe not have left the bed. Stayed with Mary, and gone with her like usual to check in on Sam. I would have been there with her and would have been able to help both her and Sammy. I wasn't and as much as I know I shouldn't blame myself I do. I'm getting over it because when I reached for her the flames got hotter and jumped out at me. I knew I had to leave Mary as much as it pained me, it was as if i heard her voice in my head. Telling me to go, telling me to go get the boys. That they needed me. So I left.
I could say I'd change all that but I won't. I will say there is nothing in my past I would change. The boys they grew up well. They've become good men. I always reminded them no matter what their mother loved them and that they really had an angel watching over them.
I wouldn't change it because they means all those people me and the boys saved would have died. I may have lost Mary but I've been able to prevent others going through that same pain.
John Winchester
Supernatural
376 words