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its been awhile, i've been wanting to post & yet nothing comes out. & as yen & i do every month, we're supposed to post about our 7th july. but sadly, we both agreed that our days werent going to be as exciting as we'd hope, so here's a highlight of my holidays so far. (:
01. teh tarik that my housemate made for all of us. its nice, kind of reminds me of teh peng. (:
02. we had our first meal as a house & it was also my first steamboat this winter, which was awesome (:
03. say hi to my egg tofu. lol. a few of us went a little crazy with those slot machines at Icey Ice one night. (:
04. vodka cruiser to end a good long day with friends (:
i went up to Swan Valley with a group of people i didnt really know (one of them invited) but it was fun, despite the unfortunate end of it. i love that Swan Valley is like a small version of Margaret River. (: it was such lovely autumn weather.
we visited the chocolate factory & 2 wineries. had a good time. (:
& just last week, i went down south with 3 friends. it was an awesome roadtrip. (: we passed through Bunbury & got to Busselton first. (:
01. on the way down, i love how the rays of light are so visible. looks like heaven opened.
02. our first dinner. me, adeline, momo & amanda. just us four girls.
03. we spent the night planning what to do the next day while having some vodka mudshake. (:
04. busselton jetty the next morning. it was beautiful. (:
01. we took a wrong turn & ended up near the coast.
02. lovely view of the sea. (:
03. the 3 of them going mad at Cape Lavendar. it was the last stop of the day & we had tasted quite a lot of wine cos we stopped by some wineries. (:
04. the only place in WA i've been that has a Moscato which was all kinds of awesome (:
Margaret River is so beautiful, i dont mind living there next time. haha. & on the last day we went back through Bunbury to get back to Perth. we stopped by for a short while. (:
01. i have a thing for ferryboats.
02. reflection off the car window
03. reflection in a puddle of water on the beach
04. the bunbury lighthouse.
some things i've realized about myself lately, kind of like taking stock for the 6 months that have passed:
01. i'm in love with vines. when we went down south, being in the midst of hectares & hectares of vines, where all you can see is just vines, somehow made me feel really peaceful. & it was such a sight to behold. (the pictures dont do them any justice) & did i mention i love wine too? sweet white wine. (:
02. i'm a loner. no not in an emo dark & twisty way, but in a "i like to stay in my room by myself all day" kind of way. which to me feels a little foreign cos i've grown up all my life with someone right there next to me. i lie in bed sometimes thinking about it, wondering when this happened. but i've come to realize that its alright.
03. this year's the first time in my entire life i've been stuck in a position where i have to comfort someone who was crying. & i must say i am totally hopeless at it. even though the people i try to be there for say they feel better, i always wish i knew how to do more, how to help. all this happening, i guess its not hard to end up thinking what God is trying to say to me about this. & after some thinking, i've deduced that i have a lot to learn.
04. this year, i've also been faced with people in my life who are hard to love. not in the loose sense, where probably everyone might get on your nerves one point in your life. but more in a "i cant believe this person is my friend & i just wish i could slap the person" kind of feeling. its been a huge struggle for me ever since i got back to perth. & i must say, i never knew or never experienced how hard it is to love a person. it scares me that its so hard to love & everytime i think i cross a hurdle, i just get pushed even further. anyway, i guess what i've learnt is that loving people for who they are is a hard thing to do. especially hard when you want to give up everytime.
05. i realized that i often get too lazy to cook myself something "awesome". but when i have to cook for someone else & myself, i actually put in the effort. i miss staying with Su Ying. cos that meant i had someone to cook for. nowadays its just the same old things in variations & all one dish meals. sigh. i kind of miss last time when i enjoyed cooking. & oddly, i've been watching Masterchef (just started diligently watching the last few episodes) & its kind of brought back that excitement of cooking & the fun of inventing dishes. (:
06. Michael Jackson's "Heal the World" makes me tear up everytime. as i'm posting this, i'm watching the 2nd MJ concert that's been shown this week. sigh. sad.& wow the concert's so emotional.
07. i remember when i went into poly, my mom said she had never seen me study so hard in my life. & now being in perth, i do study, but i always have this fear that i dont study enough. i wonder if it really is a singaporean or asian thing. cos many of the ocfers i know study like mad when its study week, they squeeze into the library with all the other uni students & mug like crazy from morning till the library closes. back during the poly days, i'd head to the airport, school or anywhere outside the house to mug with crusaders or with my person. but now, for me, i study at home, get distracted by internet & attempt to study all night for days. & yet i must really say its all God's work that i've been getting what i get. i cant be more thankful. anyway, my point is i realized how much i've changed since i came to perth. & studying habits isnt the only thing. & yet i still wish i was more hardworking. never enough eh?
wow, i wonder where that came from. clearly i ramble a lot. heh. anyway, in a nutshell, i've been enjoying the holidays. enjoying the time i have to think, the time i have to watch shows all day & the time to spend time with people. (: i was determined to spend this winter break fruitfully & i have to say, so far even with days where i just stayed home watching Greys Anatomy all day, its been well spent so far. (:
so yep, thats me since the exams ended. how's everyone? (: