i'm paralyzed with fear that i may have lupus.

i trust people far too easily.

i really never thought he'd hurt me like this.
i didn't like he was this kind of jerk.

and it hurts, really really bad.

i have so much to say to you
so much to tell you

ready?

i am stuck in this...uh. in this... oh hell i dont know;.

what is this anxiety i am re-experiencing and why did it resurface on such a delightful weekend?
why is it lingering only to haunt my waking hours?

i did not sign up for this. no, no . no.

maybe it's simply time to go back to bed.\

[it's the waiting that's eating me alive]

He gets close, but I choke ( Read more... )

I spent so many years counting calories that now the sheer mention of them makes me shudder. i do not want to know the calorie, fat or carb content. just protiene and fiber, please.
muchless am i concerned with the amount of calories i am putting out. never consider how much is burned while doing a daily activity.

and i love it

i work at seven am for several mornings consecutively and that leaves little room for being as fucked up as i'd like to be.

it is such such such a relief

to never, ever never have to talk to him again.

ahhhh glory day. :]

i never thought he of all people would hurt me this bad.

my white flag is raised high
hurry before i change my mind.