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[murv3]

I am seriously at a dead end. I don't know what else I can do in this world, nothing seems like it will ever work out in the end, and I will never see the end. I feel at like every aspect (girls, work, music) I will never succeed. All of these things take other peoples cooperation in order to work, so there must be something wrong with me. It

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[heartonheroin]

i think that you should talk to helen about all your angst against her. i don't think it's fair of you to harbor those emotions but not try to fix them - especially to her.

[murv3]

I have definately spoken to her about it on numerous occasions.

[heartonheroin]

well i would just assume that by now you'd be mature enough to understand that she is a person and people make mistakes and also that a lot of times people appear a certain way that they aren't. you can't keep blaming your mother for your unhappiness.

[murv3]

yes, this is true of course. And of course I do not blame my mother for my unhappiness. Moine was a silly complaint that I had in a fleating thought in live journal about how my life could have turned out if things had been a different way. I thought, it, wrote it, and was done with it. I do not dwell on things like that.

[heartonheroin]

i know, i just feel like you say that all the time and you even say stuff about that to me about my mom like aren't i angry that my mom chose that kind of a father for me. actually, no, i'm not because i understand the reason why my mother is not with him anymore and why things happened the way that they did.

[murv3]

I see what you mean. That's a really cool way to look at it.

[heartonheroin]

also, it really bugged me that you said that. i really love my mother even though i have my qualms with her. i would never, ever blame her for anything that my father did.

[murv3]

yeah, that tottally makes sense