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Back to a school schedule again. Hrmm. It goes pretttty okay. There are a few things to process, as expected. Adjusting to taking on a huge chunk of time and energy being dedicated towards school and heady subjects. Being back in Olympia again on a more steady basis.
I can feel myself getting back into heady-mode. On computers a steady amount (right now :\), thinking about music and equipment and technical shit a lot more. Lots of skills learning and creation and music. Hoi. Is that okay? I think so. I just need to keep my heart in check, that I'm still listening to what I'm feeling, and still involving myself in the things that feel good to me in Olympiacore culture.
Hrmm Olympia. I feel like something that has shifted for me in the past months is my attachment to being super strongly connected to the community and culture in Olympia. I still care a lot about being a part of the community here, and in many ways I do feel connected. But I think I have remembered that I don't think I will ever get everything I need just from just one culture/community, because everyone is a fluid creature with a bazillion unique characteristics. And so I have lowered my expectation that Olympian community will fulfill every one of my identities. Being in Portland over the break was a good reminder of the things that are (((so))) good for my heart that I can get from other cultures. It makes me wonder if I get more of my identities and heart needs met with Chickenhed community in Portland than the lovely friends I have Olympia.
I don't want to forget the things that I do love about Olympia and the ways that it gives me good heartfood. And then I also want to keep feeling connected to all these lovely things and people that draw me to Portland, but is obviously harder to do 180 miles up north.
But most importantly, I want to maintain a strong sense of individuality, and that I can take care of myself and be strong in my identity, whether or not I have a super strong culture that supports that identity. I can involve myself with the things that feel good to me in Olympia and make my time here the happiest it can be, while still maintaining a perspective and strong sense of who I am, as an individual and as a member of a culture or two.
I can feel myself getting back into heady-mode. On computers a steady amount (right now :\), thinking about music and equipment and technical shit a lot more. Lots of skills learning and creation and music. Hoi. Is that okay? I think so. I just need to keep my heart in check, that I'm still listening to what I'm feeling, and still involving myself in the things that feel good to me in Olympiacore culture.
Hrmm Olympia. I feel like something that has shifted for me in the past months is my attachment to being super strongly connected to the community and culture in Olympia. I still care a lot about being a part of the community here, and in many ways I do feel connected. But I think I have remembered that I don't think I will ever get everything I need just from just one culture/community, because everyone is a fluid creature with a bazillion unique characteristics. And so I have lowered my expectation that Olympian community will fulfill every one of my identities. Being in Portland over the break was a good reminder of the things that are (((so))) good for my heart that I can get from other cultures. It makes me wonder if I get more of my identities and heart needs met with Chickenhed community in Portland than the lovely friends I have Olympia.
I don't want to forget the things that I do love about Olympia and the ways that it gives me good heartfood. And then I also want to keep feeling connected to all these lovely things and people that draw me to Portland, but is obviously harder to do 180 miles up north.
But most importantly, I want to maintain a strong sense of individuality, and that I can take care of myself and be strong in my identity, whether or not I have a super strong culture that supports that identity. I can involve myself with the things that feel good to me in Olympia and make my time here the happiest it can be, while still maintaining a perspective and strong sense of who I am, as an individual and as a member of a culture or two.