Reckoner
I love my girlfriend more than anything in the world. She's by far the most amazing girlfriend I've ever had.
Though I am really sad.
She's leaving for college in September. This is the fucking second time this happens to me, someone I'm really interested in leaves me. I think she still wants to stay with me though, even through the distance. She says it will only be a year. I'm so fucking scared, though. I'd do anything for her to stay. I'd kill for her to stay. I'd die for her to stay. I'm so scared that she'll find someone better up there in the Carolinas, and there are lot of beautiful people up there, I'd know. If I could keep my hope in Stephanie for the practically two years she was in Brazil, still loving Janisha for a year shouldn't be too hard. But, in reality, it's much harder. I'd be crying every single fucking day. She's already so close to my heart, closer than so many others, that I'd be absolutely broken. I'm so scared to say that I am actually in love with Janisha, but I think I may be. I want to stay with her, even though we may be complete opposites on some aspects.
I hate my bad luck.
Though I am really sad.
She's leaving for college in September. This is the fucking second time this happens to me, someone I'm really interested in leaves me. I think she still wants to stay with me though, even through the distance. She says it will only be a year. I'm so fucking scared, though. I'd do anything for her to stay. I'd kill for her to stay. I'd die for her to stay. I'm so scared that she'll find someone better up there in the Carolinas, and there are lot of beautiful people up there, I'd know. If I could keep my hope in Stephanie for the practically two years she was in Brazil, still loving Janisha for a year shouldn't be too hard. But, in reality, it's much harder. I'd be crying every single fucking day. She's already so close to my heart, closer than so many others, that I'd be absolutely broken. I'm so scared to say that I am actually in love with Janisha, but I think I may be. I want to stay with her, even though we may be complete opposites on some aspects.
I hate my bad luck.