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so all i want to do is call him. tell him how unfair this is. this is so unfair. im so angry. this is so fucking hard i hate it.
i just keep crying. it doesnt stop... well it did for a bit when i was with mel. as soon as she left i broke down, and i fell
asleep that way. when i woke up i thought i was fine, but then i wasnt. and im not. i just want to be numb. when can i
call him? when will he realize its a mistake? when will things feel normal... or will they? normal is having him around,
talking to him every 20 min. fuck. i hate.
i just keep crying. it doesnt stop... well it did for a bit when i was with mel. as soon as she left i broke down, and i fell
asleep that way. when i woke up i thought i was fine, but then i wasnt. and im not. i just want to be numb. when can i
call him? when will he realize its a mistake? when will things feel normal... or will they? normal is having him around,
talking to him every 20 min. fuck. i hate.