First, I already knew most of that so it made me feel really special. It must be our note passing in history or the infamous "Ok, dont tell anyone this but.." So that made me smile.
Second, I know exactly how you feel with the whole not being happy all the time thing. Whenever I do something non-optomisticly or am aggrivated people freak out and think something is seriously wrong. But, I have to admit I kind of like it. I would rather people see me as the happy-go-lucky girl than the depressed-hate life girl.
Third, I am the most unconfrontational person I know. I avoid it at all costs. Usually, though, that just makes matters worse. I try to make everything okay, which is probably why I dont have good decsion making skills. I want everyone to be happy, because when someone isnt happy and I know it is because of me, I cant be as happy. I am very apologetic as a result of this. I apologize for anything and everything. Ha, I remember back in 6th and 7th grade Erika Smith would always get mad at me because I was apologizing to her for doing nothing..haha.
I dont like to cry. It makes me feel weak and wimpy. But sometimes I just need to. It feels nice, but its not something I like to do.
My biggest fear in life, besides the B word, needles and lizards is ending up alone. The fear that no one will like/accept me the way that I am. I am not changing for anyone or anything and that leads to the fear that others wont like me and thus I will be alone forever.
Lastly, I want to know why I write these long comments to your journal? Haha. Its because Im up tonight eating a powerbar and milk. I love you. Oodles. You're a star.
mm thanks laine! i concur. i don't want to end up alone at all. and crying isn't nice. i changed my mind. i've been doing way too much of it lately. and i feel very blah... ahh but i love you though!!
ok, im commenting on laine first... why does erika make you think and stuff and you seem never to have any thought with me....
that sounds kinda mean, like im calling you a vegitable or something. but you knwo what i mean.
next, you and decisions=bad. but i think i figured it out. you try to make everyone happy you say, so when you have a decision to make, your like, "hum... ill have both." and you cant have elephants and pasta. it just doesnt work....
First, I already knew most of that so it made me feel really special. It must be our note passing in history or the infamous "Ok, dont tell anyone this but.." So that made me smile.
Second, I know exactly how you feel with the whole not being happy all the time thing. Whenever I do something non-optomisticly or am aggrivated people freak out and think something is seriously wrong. But, I have to admit I kind of like it. I would rather people see me as the happy-go-lucky girl than the depressed-hate life girl.
Third, I am the most unconfrontational person I know. I avoid it at all costs. Usually, though, that just makes matters worse. I try to make everything okay, which is probably why I dont have good decsion making skills. I want everyone to be happy, because when someone isnt happy and I know it is because of me, I cant be as happy. I am very apologetic as a result of this. I apologize for anything and everything. Ha, I remember back in 6th and 7th grade Erika Smith would always get mad at me because I was apologizing to her for doing nothing..haha.
I dont like to cry. It makes me feel weak and wimpy. But sometimes I just need to. It feels nice, but its not something I like to do.
My biggest fear in life, besides the B word, needles and lizards is ending up alone. The fear that no one will like/accept me the way that I am. I am not changing for anyone or anything and that leads to the fear that others wont like me and thus I will be alone forever.
Lastly, I want to know why I write these long comments to your journal? Haha. Its because Im up tonight eating a powerbar and milk. I love you. Oodles. You're a star.
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that sounds kinda mean, like im calling you a vegitable or something. but you knwo what i mean.
next, you and decisions=bad. but i think i figured it out. you try to make everyone happy you say, so when you have a decision to make, your like, "hum... ill have both." and you cant have elephants and pasta. it just doesnt work....
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