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I have made my mind up that with all the stuff thats been going on in my life the last few months and such. I just need to let it all go, and move forward. I love heather, but nothing i can do will change the way things are. I am here and if things change for her then she knows where to contact me. I just hope she understands why i have to be no part of her life. people that have seen me try and be friends after a relationship or if i have feelings for a person. Its not pretty and i tear myself up from the inside out. She is always in my thoughts and in my heart. I hope things go well for her, but if things don't work out with this guy that maybe after some time apart from he she will call me or write to me. We will see, but for now i must keep living. I will dry my tears and raise my head. even with the memories of voice so fresh on my ears. She had the cutest giggle. I recorded it on my cell one day, and from time to time i will just play it back once or twice just so i can smile. good night