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Is it bad to push someone away that you love and want to have more than friendship with, that you were once more but they are taken? I just called heather in the UK and talked to her and said I made a mistake by contacting her. I shouldn't have never of sent the card to her. She asked why i can't be friends. I told her because i wanted more than just friends and to see her with someone else would just drive me crazy. She said you will meet someone and they will take your mind off all of this pain you feel right now. I told her It has been over 8 months now and no one has even really come close to this. I hide in my room and go to work and play Online games all night long or going out to a local bar and drink some, where i talk to no one. Just like right now the girl at work that was feeling me. I dont'have the balls to talk to her or think its fair to her, because it would be no better than a rebound type thing. I told her that maybe one day when/if I get strong enough to contact her again as just friends she will hear from me.