For all who dont know the story

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Well, for a while I've felt like I was going up shit creek without a paddle. I have been so confused, because everything in my life has been moving so fast. My relationship with Wilde Coyote has been complexed and confusing and I just needed to hit the slow motion button for a couple days, but it seems no one else wants to slow down. Wilde Coyote was constantly trying to get a hold of me, and I understood why, but I was just frustrated that I couldn't just spend a day with my friends without having to consult him about it. I mean, I don't call him everywhere when he goes to visit his friends. I just felt like I had all the pressure and he always got what he wanted. I was fed up with it and I needed tim eto think and so I broke up with Wilde Coyote. For the days I spent without him, I felt like a drag. It felt as though someone ripped off a piece of me. I felt so terrible for being so self involved and being such a jerk and not explaining why I broke up with Wilde Coyote. So then, I spent the days I was apart from Wilde Coyote, just finding myself and thinking about myself. I needed that. I was getting lost, but then I found that I was even more lost without someone to help me figure out what I was thinking. Wilde Coyote is so gifted when it comes to helping me figure out my problems, and he is so caring about it too. He shows so much support for me, and I really really appreciate it. I never really explain or go into details about how much I appreciate him and having him to be there for me, but I am so thankful to have a caring boyfriend. I love him so much. So after a few days, my thinkin slid from how am I going to let him go, into how am I going to get him back. I was envious of people who had someone, and I was feeling so alone. I emailed Wilde Coyote several times, but he never emailed me back. So finally I had the courage to call, and then he wasn't home. Then finally unexpectedly he called back, and we talked or about an hour. It was a good conversation, and I pointed out what I was thinking, and he told me he still wanted to be with me. And we got back together, and I am so happy. I want to see him, but he is on vacation, and I wish he was here so I could hold him and just express how happy I am to have him back. Although 2 days isn't long, 2 days without him seemed to last weeks. I couldn't imagine spending more than a month without him to at least talk to and love. Thankyou, god, for guiding me through this and for helping me realize and confront issues that I've had. I just thank all my friends for being supportive and you always help me get through tough times. Thanks mostly to Edward, Cherries, and Gothic Vicious. You guys helped a lot. Guidance, comfort, and laughter, that is what I got from you guys, and I am so happy you were there for me and I know you always will be. I'm afraid that someday I will loose Wilde Coyote to this picyure perfect girl, who just makes him laugh constantly and always keeps him satisfied. I feel that sometime si don't always measure up to the affection he deserves and that I sometimes seem and portray myself as ungrateful and I wish that he could just have someone who so perfect for him, but I try my best to keep him happy. Well, I g2g. Edward looks mighty bored. So ttyl. Bie Bies.
ps: i love you Wilde Coyote!