GOING UP SHIT CREEK WITHOUT A PADDLE!
Hey guys. Today sucked. I mean worse than sucked. It was terrible. Here:
I used to be strong
But now look at me
lying on the floor
tears dripping onto my knees.
It feels like I'm dead
lifeless, no meaning
just lying here defeated
wishing and pleading.
Wishing I could forgive
the things that you have done
Pleading to convince myself
that you are still the one.
The one I will have next to me
throughout my life
to help me, guide me faithfully
and always stand by my side.
But now these thoughts are shattered
as is my heart
just torn into scattered pieces
I’m falling apart.
I’m torn to pieces
Ripped by the seems
I’m coming apart
And you’re not here to save me.
I might survive
Day to day
But quietly and slowly
I will surely fade away.
My heart is broken
And shattered to bits
I search for the pieces
But they don’t quite fit.
Without you
I feel off beat
And every night
I begin to weep.
Weeping in your absence
I wish you were here
To comfort and hold me
And to wipe away my tears.
Tears that I’ve created
Because I let you go
Why did I do this
My self esteem is so low.
I want to see you
Your face has faded
The memory of you is lost
And from you I feel hated.
I hope you don’t hate me
You mean the world to me
I just want you to be happy
With or without me.
I don’t want to change
And I don’t want you to
If we don’t fit
Why didn’t I expect it to come unglued?
Everyday,
Everynight,
I wish I could take it back,
I wish I didn’t say goodbye.
I can’t remember why
I wish I could take it back
I just want you to be happy
Because there is many things I lack.
I lack keeping you happy
I lack seeing you at any opportune moment
I lack giving you the respect you need
I lack giving you acknowledgement.
I’m sorry I’m detached
I didn’t even say goodbye
I cowarded my way out
But in person I would’ve cried.
I can’t stand to hear your voice
Because I know I hurt you
I just want you to find someone
Who will see you I as I do.
But when they see you
I want them to know
That they need to love you
And make sure it shows.
Although you question
And some times think I lie
I want them to be completely open
So there’s nothing hidden inside.
I thought I told you everything
I thought I had no lies
But there was something
Something kept deep inside.
I’ve only told 3 people
I wish it was 4
Because I want you to know
To even out the score.
Please talk to me
Or maybe you can write
I want to talk so bad
I wish I could see you tonight.
But I can’t because you aren’t close
At least not close enough to see
Without you I’m drowning
I can hardly breathe.
Maybe I’m living
As in my heart keeps beating
But inside I’m dead
The darkness is creeping.
Just waiting
For me to go under
But loosing you
Just feeds the hunger.
I want you back
But then again I don’t
I’m so confused
I feel alone.
I change my mind
I want you back
Even with everything
With all the things I lack.
I don’t care
Please talk to me
I want to see you
I want us to be.
I miss you so much
I want to talk
I’m ready to open up
I’m not ready to walk.
To walk away
From you forever
I just want to be with you
You keep me together.
Don’t leave my side
I feel so alone
Without you in my life
I’ve become unkown.
-Melinda Wuenschell
I used to be strong
But now look at me
lying on the floor
tears dripping onto my knees.
It feels like I'm dead
lifeless, no meaning
just lying here defeated
wishing and pleading.
Wishing I could forgive
the things that you have done
Pleading to convince myself
that you are still the one.
The one I will have next to me
throughout my life
to help me, guide me faithfully
and always stand by my side.
But now these thoughts are shattered
as is my heart
just torn into scattered pieces
I’m falling apart.
I’m torn to pieces
Ripped by the seems
I’m coming apart
And you’re not here to save me.
I might survive
Day to day
But quietly and slowly
I will surely fade away.
My heart is broken
And shattered to bits
I search for the pieces
But they don’t quite fit.
Without you
I feel off beat
And every night
I begin to weep.
Weeping in your absence
I wish you were here
To comfort and hold me
And to wipe away my tears.
Tears that I’ve created
Because I let you go
Why did I do this
My self esteem is so low.
I want to see you
Your face has faded
The memory of you is lost
And from you I feel hated.
I hope you don’t hate me
You mean the world to me
I just want you to be happy
With or without me.
I don’t want to change
And I don’t want you to
If we don’t fit
Why didn’t I expect it to come unglued?
Everyday,
Everynight,
I wish I could take it back,
I wish I didn’t say goodbye.
I can’t remember why
I wish I could take it back
I just want you to be happy
Because there is many things I lack.
I lack keeping you happy
I lack seeing you at any opportune moment
I lack giving you the respect you need
I lack giving you acknowledgement.
I’m sorry I’m detached
I didn’t even say goodbye
I cowarded my way out
But in person I would’ve cried.
I can’t stand to hear your voice
Because I know I hurt you
I just want you to find someone
Who will see you I as I do.
But when they see you
I want them to know
That they need to love you
And make sure it shows.
Although you question
And some times think I lie
I want them to be completely open
So there’s nothing hidden inside.
I thought I told you everything
I thought I had no lies
But there was something
Something kept deep inside.
I’ve only told 3 people
I wish it was 4
Because I want you to know
To even out the score.
Please talk to me
Or maybe you can write
I want to talk so bad
I wish I could see you tonight.
But I can’t because you aren’t close
At least not close enough to see
Without you I’m drowning
I can hardly breathe.
Maybe I’m living
As in my heart keeps beating
But inside I’m dead
The darkness is creeping.
Just waiting
For me to go under
But loosing you
Just feeds the hunger.
I want you back
But then again I don’t
I’m so confused
I feel alone.
I change my mind
I want you back
Even with everything
With all the things I lack.
I don’t care
Please talk to me
I want to see you
I want us to be.
I miss you so much
I want to talk
I’m ready to open up
I’m not ready to walk.
To walk away
From you forever
I just want to be with you
You keep me together.
Don’t leave my side
I feel so alone
Without you in my life
I’ve become unkown.
-Melinda Wuenschell