You can't pray away the gay! Part 2: Reflection
There's been a lot a gayness around this week! International Day Against Homophobia in the midst of it all on Monday 17th May. I can tell before I even start, that this is likely to turn into a bit of a ramble as I don't really have a direction or a purpose for this post; I just wanted to get some crap out of my head.
I've been across to dads tonight for dinner and to just generally spend some time with him. He works away but still, I don't visit him as much as I should. I love him heaps, he is not the problem. He has a girlfriend who is insanely jealous of his and my relationship...we're kinda close and we always have been. I guess I'm a daddy's girl lol Anyway, I used to get along quite well with his girlfriend...we used to go out for a food / drinks when he was away.
Long story short, dads girlfriend snooped about in my stuff once when I was living at my dads house. She found a book she didn't like (incidentally a self help book about 'coming out') and she confiscated my house keys and threw me out at 7.30am just before I was about to leave for work; telling me not to come back. She promised, in a threatening way, she would tell my dad when he got back home, which in effect forced me to go tell my mam when I wasn't ready to do so as I couldn't have one of my parents know without the other....also I needed somewhere to stay! It hurt because of the way it happened and we were, I thought, close. You could argue she kinda done me a favour. That said, you can probably understand why I'm not really her biggest fan. These days I tolerate her for my Dads sake but I don't really spend any time with her anymore unless my Dad is around. I've noticed recently though, every time I'm around her, I tend to think about what happened and I'm finding it slightly difficult to get past. It's slightly weird in the fact that this went down about 3-4 years ago.
On a tiny related note, I was in the car with her on the way home tonight and my mind kept wondering if she watched the 'Tonight -Afraid To Be Gay' news special that aired last week. My mam talked at me non-stop throughout! lol
[ Again - Kudos & Thanks to sweetbalm for the icon :O) ]
I've been across to dads tonight for dinner and to just generally spend some time with him. He works away but still, I don't visit him as much as I should. I love him heaps, he is not the problem. He has a girlfriend who is insanely jealous of his and my relationship...we're kinda close and we always have been. I guess I'm a daddy's girl lol Anyway, I used to get along quite well with his girlfriend...we used to go out for a food / drinks when he was away.
Long story short, dads girlfriend snooped about in my stuff once when I was living at my dads house. She found a book she didn't like (incidentally a self help book about 'coming out') and she confiscated my house keys and threw me out at 7.30am just before I was about to leave for work; telling me not to come back. She promised, in a threatening way, she would tell my dad when he got back home, which in effect forced me to go tell my mam when I wasn't ready to do so as I couldn't have one of my parents know without the other....also I needed somewhere to stay! It hurt because of the way it happened and we were, I thought, close. You could argue she kinda done me a favour. That said, you can probably understand why I'm not really her biggest fan. These days I tolerate her for my Dads sake but I don't really spend any time with her anymore unless my Dad is around. I've noticed recently though, every time I'm around her, I tend to think about what happened and I'm finding it slightly difficult to get past. It's slightly weird in the fact that this went down about 3-4 years ago.
On a tiny related note, I was in the car with her on the way home tonight and my mind kept wondering if she watched the 'Tonight -Afraid To Be Gay' news special that aired last week. My mam talked at me non-stop throughout! lol
[ Again - Kudos & Thanks to sweetbalm for the icon :O) ]