yea im bored again
so its like 820 and im sitting here printing off like 50 powerpoint pages to study for my business law test that is at 930 tomorrow morning. I also have a microeconomics test tomorrow at 1pm which i have studied a little bit for. Im not too worried about either of them, but i do really need to study and try and make a good solid B or low A. So far classes arent hard or anything its just i go everyday now instead of just 4 days a week. My accounting class goes monday wednesday friday, which to my surprise isnt all that bad. A 50 minute class just seems soooo short after being on the 75 minute schedule. ALso to my surprise i like my accounting class. Im sure it will bite me in the ass come test time, but i find all the stuff we cover interesting. The only shitty thing about the class is that all the tests are on saturdays...yes saturdays which doesnt make any sense to me.
So the seahawks made it to the superbowl which was awesome considering they had never gone before, but they lost the game. It was an ok game, but it just seemed like after a while, all the calls where directed towards seattle when they had just made a big play. I had a superbowl party that i had invited like 20 of my friends to but was surprised to find that like almost all of them backed out. I think i had a max of 6 people there. I grilled hot dogs and hamburgers for 2 times the amount of people that were there. PLayed some beer pong and BEAT RAJ!!..oh yea i beat him finally after sucking ass for soo long. Kelli and courtney were there and decided to take shots of captain? yea kinda gross but they did it. they took about 4 and then stopped...but soon got shit faced. Kelli kept wanting more and so we ended up having to hide it. she found it and long story short, we had her in my bathroom puking her brains out. she was so out of it, that it scared me. The thing that freaked me out the most where her eyes and how they were half way up into her head. After seeing that, i went and sat down and just blanked out every couple of seconds, because i realized something. In this high tention, high emotion situation with kelli on the floor and courtney trying to help her i realized that i cant really show emotion. I just sat there..did what i had to do..and went back to being chill. Courtney is in there on the ground making sure she can breath and im sitting my ass on a chair. i would of course help when it was necessary but it just think that a guy should have a little more emotion when it comes to that. this is probably also why i still dont have a girlfriend...ok kayleigh i know ur reading this..just shut it, i know what ur gonna say..but im serious. its a problem and i cant fix it.
i dont know why i cant show it..i just dont. for example, my best friend from when i lived in seattle died recently in his sleep. hee had crohns disease and didnt know he was blocking his own airway. my mom called me to tell me that he died and i just took it and kept on. i mean i thought about it and shit and thought to myself that i will never get to see him again, but i couldnt shead a tear or anything. this is the kid that i had 99% of my baby pix with that just fucking died and i cant shead a tear. to get to my point, if i ever had a girlfriend and they had a serious problem, i could probably help them out, but could never "feel" for them. like i geuss be there for them emotionally. i dont know what to do about it so yea.
other than that..im gonna be studying for a while. couldnt go to lost night, im still gonna watch it at my place, but couldnt lose the time before or after. i know im taking the time to do this..but this took like 10 minutes total. i just kept stopping to do something and coming back. later all
So the seahawks made it to the superbowl which was awesome considering they had never gone before, but they lost the game. It was an ok game, but it just seemed like after a while, all the calls where directed towards seattle when they had just made a big play. I had a superbowl party that i had invited like 20 of my friends to but was surprised to find that like almost all of them backed out. I think i had a max of 6 people there. I grilled hot dogs and hamburgers for 2 times the amount of people that were there. PLayed some beer pong and BEAT RAJ!!..oh yea i beat him finally after sucking ass for soo long. Kelli and courtney were there and decided to take shots of captain? yea kinda gross but they did it. they took about 4 and then stopped...but soon got shit faced. Kelli kept wanting more and so we ended up having to hide it. she found it and long story short, we had her in my bathroom puking her brains out. she was so out of it, that it scared me. The thing that freaked me out the most where her eyes and how they were half way up into her head. After seeing that, i went and sat down and just blanked out every couple of seconds, because i realized something. In this high tention, high emotion situation with kelli on the floor and courtney trying to help her i realized that i cant really show emotion. I just sat there..did what i had to do..and went back to being chill. Courtney is in there on the ground making sure she can breath and im sitting my ass on a chair. i would of course help when it was necessary but it just think that a guy should have a little more emotion when it comes to that. this is probably also why i still dont have a girlfriend...ok kayleigh i know ur reading this..just shut it, i know what ur gonna say..but im serious. its a problem and i cant fix it.
i dont know why i cant show it..i just dont. for example, my best friend from when i lived in seattle died recently in his sleep. hee had crohns disease and didnt know he was blocking his own airway. my mom called me to tell me that he died and i just took it and kept on. i mean i thought about it and shit and thought to myself that i will never get to see him again, but i couldnt shead a tear or anything. this is the kid that i had 99% of my baby pix with that just fucking died and i cant shead a tear. to get to my point, if i ever had a girlfriend and they had a serious problem, i could probably help them out, but could never "feel" for them. like i geuss be there for them emotionally. i dont know what to do about it so yea.
other than that..im gonna be studying for a while. couldnt go to lost night, im still gonna watch it at my place, but couldnt lose the time before or after. i know im taking the time to do this..but this took like 10 minutes total. i just kept stopping to do something and coming back. later all