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to who ever the fuck reads this, i guess, this is my way of venting?... im trying to set myself straight and i think im doing alright. but im one to kinda forgive, i guess you can put it, or just let certain things go, or just give in easily, well, fuck that, im not guna waste my time with people who can careless about spending time with me or talking. over reacting in a sense, maybe, but what ever, if those certain people wanna talk or hang, let them talk to me, other then that, screw wasting my time and getting pissed off about it. i dont need it. i dont fucking belong in newington anyways, i dont know where i belong at all, sometimes i think i understand myself, but its better not to. im afraid im just wasting my teenage life spending my time in newington if no one is here anymore, all my friends from high school kinda moved on in some way, like changing, hating me, graduating, etc... im afraid of the future, that this is the best im guna have it. feels like i have years to go where i worry about reality, but i talked with my brother jeff about stuff like that, im just thinking a whole lot. i dont know what to expect i guess.