i fooled myself in not dying again.

i am drinking to forget those memories that were made that day
playing a roll and falling out of place, cant seem to get together
dying before living, been blinded for so long, it doesnt seem wrong

dropped here, not so much as born ( Read more... )

trying not to sound anymore pathetic then i already am, i just cant take something like that, i obviously need to move on when something like this hurts so much. and happens to often, and the only way is to have no contact because its just so hard to tell whats the deal with you. minds games and you have no idea and do or probably deny that and its ( Read more... )

its ending near the end of high school, good ridence, i dont wanna see any familiar faces anymore. i'm guna be that grumpy old lonely man that chases kids who come onto my property. guna be fat and sexy, i so hate you all, get the picture and leave me the fuck alone.

thats it, im writtig this so all can read, i need to get over dawn so badly, im hurt by something so stupid by the fact shes going out with someone, and not only that her x b/f. i dont want to be near a girl for quite some time.

So I finally got a car, I'm pretty excited on the fact and also starting a band with Jati and Brian. Anywho, I'm not guna rant on about these things to much; but lately a lot of people have been fucking with my head (as usual), been really sketchy towards me and other friends quite a bit, ditching me, being arrogant, hypocritical, immature and ( Read more... )

fuck you, your lies, your cheapness, your mindgames, you fucking over me, yourself. sorry to have allowed you to waste my time and i fucking stood up for you on many occasions, yet you have the balls to tell fucking lies about me, maybe some could be true about what i did, like maybe you taking something the wrong way.. or cause idk from my ( Read more... )

My friend Kevin made a good point, I should'nt wait until after I graduate to get my next tattoo, cause of the sun light, cant get direct sun light for 6 weeks on a tattoo. And if I decide to go to the beach and shit during the summer, I really wouldn't be able to.. so should get my next one in about a month? heh

to the wounded: i have seen the self image that they've forced you to reduce to shattered glass, with the only remaining value lying in its jagged edges. but the few who warrant waking for await their recognition. no fear of death but with fear of life, your weakness fills everyone. so live. angels for everyone. for no lack of searching i can't ( Read more... )