sick
I have a cold. this complicates everything. i can't take my normal meds because i cant take cold meds if i take my arthritis meds. so in all i just feel awful. I spent the whole day today sleeping. i just woke up about 2 hours ago. this was the first time i was awake from more than 10 minutes all day today. well hopefully this will just get this out of the way before we head to mexico for x-mas. i need to start getting thing together for the boys for the trip. i should prolly order the boys some shorts and stuff before we leave. sandals.... i am sure they need more stuff than that. i need to get organized and get my shit together. we leave in 23 days or so. other than that there isn't much of anything going on in my life. hot flashes yes, pain yep, went to the chiropractor once, that hurt, but i will go again to give it a fair shot.things have been really hard. my meds are not really helping very much right now even when i can take them. i don't know what to say about it any more. i am not angry about it. not like i was. I am just running out of options. my hands are bing effected. it feels like the tendons are being shortened in my the palm of my hands, if that makes any sense. i try to keep moving, knitting, typing, etc.i saw a movie about Frida Kahlo last night. she in the movie referred to her Judas of a body. i totally get that. i want one of her paintings. I feel less lonely when i am presented with her pain. i am not sure why that is... but i kinda get the her that was presented in the movie. she hurt but she wanted to live any way. at least for as long as possible. she drank and smoked and loved and lost and lived out loud even though she had to spend the majority of her life in bed dealing with pain.