here for now..
i know i am not the best lj friend..i dont even get to update anymore, yes i am busy and no, thats not an excuse.
i should be able to have time for people like you but everytime i get on here, i start thinking in so much detail that i get really tired and then i start complaining about what i dont have and what i cant manage to do with my life..its like i use this online journal to bitch at myself, as a way to feel sorry for my own being..but i wanna be more brave..i know, that doesnt happen by escaping yourself but its not gonna happen if i keep thinking that i am becoming as miserable as a frozen bird lying on the ground who couldnt make it to the south in autumn..
so i do apologize for not being around for so long, although i cant promise i will do better.:(
i should be able to have time for people like you but everytime i get on here, i start thinking in so much detail that i get really tired and then i start complaining about what i dont have and what i cant manage to do with my life..its like i use this online journal to bitch at myself, as a way to feel sorry for my own being..but i wanna be more brave..i know, that doesnt happen by escaping yourself but its not gonna happen if i keep thinking that i am becoming as miserable as a frozen bird lying on the ground who couldnt make it to the south in autumn..
so i do apologize for not being around for so long, although i cant promise i will do better.:(