have to stop thinking
.....................lonliness is a plague and I'm infected.
Okay- I'm walking down the streets of UTEP. and I'm watching people. I watch them carefully....study their every move. I watch them inter act with others and then I try to notice their laugh. Laughs are so distinct.
I laugh too at times. i glide my hands across the piano keys- that is when I feel the happiest....I noticed that today. I'm sitting there, playing a song I always love to play...and I am thinking " Why the hell aren't you playing?"
I'm stuck.
filling my insides with sweets make me sick to the core
YET i still stuff my mouth and brain and stomach and ideas.......with sweets.....
I jump into a pool of ice cold water to get rid of it all.
When I am in the water I talk out loud. I don't think anyone can really hear what i say....but I like to hear what I say........when my ears are full of water.
Okay- I'm walking down the streets of UTEP. and I'm watching people. I watch them carefully....study their every move. I watch them inter act with others and then I try to notice their laugh. Laughs are so distinct.
I laugh too at times. i glide my hands across the piano keys- that is when I feel the happiest....I noticed that today. I'm sitting there, playing a song I always love to play...and I am thinking " Why the hell aren't you playing?"
I'm stuck.
filling my insides with sweets make me sick to the core
YET i still stuff my mouth and brain and stomach and ideas.......with sweets.....
I jump into a pool of ice cold water to get rid of it all.
When I am in the water I talk out loud. I don't think anyone can really hear what i say....but I like to hear what I say........when my ears are full of water.